False Memories

暴走中

2009-12-20T18:57:00.001+08:00

まぁ、結局、みんなさんの言ったとおりでしたね。

FRICTION

2009-11-16T16:11:00.002+08:00

Haha well well well hasn't this been a dead little blog recently. It can't be helped, in between assignments, work and other random nonsense there's barely any time to blog. Expect sporadic updates though. Hopefully.

Life has been interesting to say the least, mostly a careening train of stress but it's definitely had its fun moments.

Rachel and Khid said they want to give me an extreme makeover two weeks from now. I am very very scared, especially since Khid said something about skinny jeans... I hope they don't nickname it Project Mat or anything.

FRICTION by the B'z is a freaking awesome song. (Y)

FRICTION - B'z

Livin' in this boring world (Oh yeah!)
Every day just passing by (Oh yeah!)
Nobody's fault
I'm making my choice all the time

Standin' still, feet on the run (Oh yeah!)
Stare at the sky, never see the sun (Oh yeah!)
In and out of mind
Still searching for a sign

Something is wrong
We're losing our senses
Really need to know what I am

Shouting out my name! (Shout it out!)
Trying to find my way! (Find it out!)
I just need a new sensation! (I just need a new sensation!)
Can't just sit and die! (No we can't!)
Baby, I'll come alive! (For myself!)
Pull the thread from all these stitches!
We can't make it without friction!

Uncivilized, this modern world (Oh yeah!)
Feeding the poor with empty words (Oh no!)
They're just killing time
And thinking no one would mind

What's going on?
Everything in a haze
I'm not hiding anymore

Shouting out my name! (Shout it out!)
Walking down Broadway! (Walk with me!)
I just got a new direction! (I just got a new direction!)
Baby, I'd better fight! (Like a dog!)
I gotta live my life! (For myself!)
Won't be scared to lose everything!

Shouting out my name!
Trying to make you see my face!
Now I've gotta do it my way! (Now I've gotta do it my way!)
Baby, I gotta fight! (Like a dog!)
Fight for my life! (For myself!)
Ain't nothin' that I won't be missing!
Nothing happens without friction!

バカな事

2009-10-17T01:42:00.002+08:00

Oh, hello there. If (and that's one hollow resounding 'if') you have been periodically checking this dying blog for updates only to be disappointed time and time again, I apologize. I just can't blog during the holidays, my life is too boring. Oh well, after jalan rayer with the Anderson folks, these boring holidays will end and school will begin anew! Farewell to those days spent in futility. *coughKuantancough*

Anyway last night was BB Night, as is usually the case every Friday. As I was eating dinner with Albert at LJS the conversation eventually steered towards the direction of girls, where Albert eventually said:

"Dude, I play BlazBlue too, you think I know anything about girls?"

"...Please... Please don't say something depressing like that ever again."

Oh well, enough pessimism for one post. Jalan rayer, whoop whoop!

Horizon

2009-08-29T10:46:00.004+08:00

Fly away, どんなに遠くても。

Thursday marked the end of the best and worst four months of my life (Anderson people please don't get angry, you know I use the word 'best' a lot D=). I've met all sorts of amazing characters who have made the sleepless nights, insurmountable stress, and constant expenditure of money worthwhile. But enough of that, I should hurry up and recount the day before my keyboard gets wet from... Condensation. Yeah.

Common Foundation Graduation Party

Our final assignment: the HTI dossier! Mine folds out so even though it starts out as 21cm x 21cm, it's actually like 6km x 4km. Or something.

Anyway, after handing it in, almost everybody went home to change, leaving just me and Claud (at least until Wen Ling came later), bored and alone in the cold cold studio.

"Eh sialah, we two alone, like gay siol!"

To pass the time, we watched Slipknot videos and Claud camwhored (I have like 30 pictures of him in my laptop now, talk about gay =.=). But saving the best for last, we played SNAP. Yes. Snap. Have you ever seen two seventeen-year-old boys play Snap? It's interesting, to say the least. Lots of shouting, swearing, and laughter. Oh, and Claud made me bleed with those savage nails of him. Crazy. Since when does Snap = bloodshed? The scar has yet to go away. =(

When everyone finally came back, we all went to the Vanda Room together. My Hei mask turned out to be epic fail and it ended up closer to the Joker's face. Lol. It actually fitted in pretty well with the Slipknot masks that Claud, Tom, Syed, and Alvin made. So Yoong Sheng thought I was a Slipknot member too. Niiiiiice. Therefore, when some of the finalists for Best Dressed turned out to be-

"The scary boys from Class 60!"-

Yoong Sheng forced me to go up as well. The catwalk thing was epic fail, I had no idea what to do, but it was so short I didn't have time to anyway.

In the end Ainsley's group won (COSPLAY KIAS) and Tom and Syed and the others were comforting me for us not winning. LOL?

Syai's group dance performance was pretty awesome. But there were parts he wasn't in, and seeing him shafted to the side, looking on at the others was pretty funny. Haha.

And then came the food. Haha you can look at the photos on Facebook to see just how hungry I was. =/

OH OH And while I had this like, gigantic mouthful of noodles in my... Mouth, Liyana walked up to me and asked,

"Eh, can we eat now?"

HAHA LIYANA YOU MALAY YOU.

As usual I didn't make much use of the dance floor, mainly just standing around hanging out with Alvin, Tom, Syai, Claud, and the others and watching them dance. Unless it was one of those times Syai pulled me into the circle and forced me to dance. D=

"Come on Khairi, release your inner beast!"
"I don't have an inner beast!"

But it was still fun though, in some odd way.

And Syai had a dance-off with Claud! It was freaking epic how all the design students formed a circle around them and cheered them on. Both of them were great, but Claud lost because the song stopped while he was dancing halfway. HAHA. Sorry Claud.

After a while, me, JX, and Wen Ling decided to go back to the studio for some, eh, fresh air(?). It was really nostalgic seeing the dimly lit studio at night. Even though as a DCMD student, I would still be using that particular studio, I just wouldn't be there with the same people.

But my reminiscing was rudely interrupted by the realization that we had left most of our stuff at the Vanda Room, so me and Wen Ling had no choice but to get them back (since JX was too lazy to come). All the way to the Vanda Room and even back to the studio, we loudly sang songs from that Rag Fair video, not caring who was present.

"Ore ni shitemirya kore de saigo no Lady
Eli, my love, so sweet~"

I swear the punch was spiked.

All in all, it was an amazing day, and I'd give anything to be able to live it again. Thanks Class 59, for everything. When I'm feeling less sleepy/lazy, I'll make a proper thank-you post, so this'll have to do for now. Heh. 8D

うん。　ありがとうな。　これで、　アナタの事を信じてつづける。

ウンメイ

2009-08-14T12:04:00.004+08:00

ジンシュエン：　ビーコンが俺たちの教室にいるぜ、　俺の前に座るなんてｗ

ボク：　なに　なに　なに　どうして　どうして　どうして　あぁ　あぁ　あぁ　ずるい　ずるい　ずるい

ジンシュエン：　まぁ、　DCMDのことかもな。　フエイとイアンもみんないるし。　それより！　彼女が、　オマエの席に座るぜ！

ボク：　うあぁぁぁぁぁぁぁぁぁぁぁ　ちくしょ！ボクにはしらないDCMDのことがいるはずがないだろう！　自殺するよ！　まずボクが寝過ぎた、　それから寝過ぎただからこんなことになってしまった？！　くそぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉぉ！

ジンシュエン：　ｗｗｗ　あぁ、　つまんね、　彼女たちもう帰ったぜ。

ボク：　「たち」はいらない！　大切のは「彼女」だけだ！　アルヴィン、　いない？　あいつ一度もビーコンを見てなかったなのに。

ジンシュエン：　いや、　あいつもMCする。　そしてあいつと彼女、　ウンメイに繋げないだからなんだよ。

ボク：　…

Love & Piece

2009-08-06T00:59:00.003+08:00

While I was packing up my stuff in the middle of Manish's HTI tutorial, which I had to leave because I had to attend the DCMD talk, Jinghui suddenly appeared beside me, having occupied Trina's vacant seat (she had just left as well, to go to the National Day Observation Ceremony. Whatever that is.)

"Eh, you know, last night I had a dream about you," Jinghui said, quite unexpectedly.

"... What?" I blinked. Oh wait. It's Jinghui. Her dream probably involves me going around saving helpless citizens from eagles using my signature attack, Horny Geyser.

"Yeah! I dreamt that you asked me to help you pick out a present for your girlfriend!"

"What?" I laughed. "Really?"

"Yeah, you were like asking me to help choose a ring, it was so weird! You were asking me stuff like 'Which design is nice?' and stuff like that, and then we were walking around looking for it, and it was so funny, we got lost!"

"Haha, cause I was with you what. But sadly I don't have a girlfriend."

Jinghui shrugged. "But still! It was so weird!"

"... Haha, yeah. Yeah I'm sure it was."

I finished packing my stuff and excused myself, and heaving an inexplicable sigh as I pushed open the door of the classroom.

... Girlfriend, huh.

BB with Alvin and Revive was awesome fun, [rant]except when freaking Eternal challenged me (Story of his life) and I let Alvin play one round for me, which he lost. I promptly pwned the ass in the second round. But in the third, Eternal, being the genius that he is, figured out how much I love to rush that shit down, and spammed 5D's over and over again. Before I knew it, I was left with a sliver of health. D= I then took down like 80% of his health but I still lost. Yay me. I didn't mind losing too much though. Until one of his friends congratulated him on SGCafe for 'pawning' me. And Eternal thanked him, without making any acknowledgement at all that I was not playing the full game. Just "No lah, tyco win." You know, the usual, "I say it was tyco but I really think I'm that damn good" kind of bullshit. Man I'm so angry I feel like ripping out his spine and making him eat it. And his friend Yoshinori too. Just you wait fools. I be back.[/rant]

うるさい

2009-08-05T00:07:00.001+08:00

You just had to open the freaking wound, didn't you.

蘇りました～！！

2009-08-04T01:17:00.006+08:00

It's been a while since I last blogged, my bad. But due to overwhelming demand, (and by 'overwhelming', I mean 'Syaifullah') I shall do so. Rejoice, mortals.

A lot of things happened last week, including us having to draw the 'hottest' nude model ever, (I felt like crying, gives you an idea of how hot she is), Syai and myself going an escapade to Bugis to get our tessellations printed out only to come back and discover that we didn't have to hand them in that day, the whole class suddenly going on a Friends For Sale craze, and Jing Xuan's mother falling down. What a surprise.

Holy crap, time's just flown by, hasn't it? I still can't believe that the semester's going to end on the 21st of August. 28th, if you count Graduation Week.

I know I've told a lot of people since the beginning of the year that I couldn't wait for the semester to be over and done with, but now I'm really gonna miss Class 59. And the Class 60 bastards too. I know we'll still have HTI but it's just not gonna be the same. =/

But I shouldn't think about that right now. It'll only make me depressed D= Happy thoughts happy thoughts... Holidays! Oh yes. Eight (seven if you don't count Graduation Week) weeks of pure unadulterated bliss. Whatever do I do? I hate how I usually just sit around and rot, so this time I should probably go out and do something. What's there to look forward to from the 29th of August to the 18th of October?

- Job hunting with Isaac. Because working alone, sucks. ("HEART ATTACK!")

- Hopefully another BB tournament. 32nd place doesn't sit well with me.

- Anime marathon! I've got a lot of catching up to do heee. 8D

- Having hair so that Syai can no longer show off the fact that he has a fringe and I don't. D=

- And of course if it's possible, I'd want to catch up with all my old friends. At least you guys' mothers don't fall down.

Man my life is boring. Maybe I should just commit suicide with a clothespin and spare myself the boredom.

Somebody's birthday is coming up, and he won't let me forget it. I'll give you a hint. His name starts with 'T' and ends with 'oby', and he's just one of the five billion people born in this damned month. Seriously goddammit why must so many people be born in August?! *counts the number of people in his Facebook who are born in August*

. . .

Okay July actually has more but so freaking what! Do I have to buy presents for all of these people?! Thank God you weren't born in August, Khairi. *pats own back*

I hereby conclude that August is an overrated month. I mean, even Singapore chose to be born in August. *rolls eyes*

Kind of random, but I also hate how my BB skills are fluctuating these days, I underperformed like mad at Bugis on Friday and let Uncle Kuni scold me. =(

"Malays should just go home!"

Also don't like how Faylar didn't bother using his Jin on me. Makes me feel like I'm not good enough for it or something. =,=;;

Oh well, this all probably came from the results of the last tournament. Man I need another chance to fix this shit. First round knockout, what. The. Eff. Then some people fourth still can complain HOR ALVIN LAM HOR (whore) ZZZ lols. Okay that whole part was weird but I had to say it.

My blog needs more pictures. But my laptop's as graphically starved as my blog so that'll have to wait for another day.

We're going to have more 'hot' nude model drawing later! YAAAAAAY I can't wait. =.=

ラブ＝ソ＝ブル

2009-07-23T23:19:00.003+08:00

One day, I was just minding my own business, innocuously shading in the picture of Carl and Nirvana I drew for my sketchbook, when Syaifullah suddenly asked me,

"Eh, Khairi, why never blog? I need entertainment! And bitching!"

"Huh?" I replied, thoroughly confused. I tried to recall the last time I bitched about someone on my blog, but came up short. Frowning, I said, "Since when did my blog become a bitching blog?"

"It totally is!" Syaifullah insisted. "You bitched about Sandy on your blog!"

Without warning, the entire class (including Class 60) erupted into a chorus of loud, accusing howls. "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORH." You get the idea.

"WHAT?!" I shouted in alarm. "No, I didn't!"

"Did you really bitch about Sandy on your blog?" Sophia questioned, and the look she gave me when she said that bore a hole into my very soul.

"N-no! I didn't!" I tried to assure her, then turned to Syaifullah. "Syaifullah, I'm gonna kick your little Peranakan ass!"

"I'm not Peranakan!" Syaifullah said in denial, "I'm Malay!"

Gotta do BDC now. Sigh.

我が名は、　ハクメン！

ユーダイモニア

2009-07-08T21:22:00.003+08:00

Certain events over the past few weeks have convinced me that I am really bad. at dealing with people. Really, really bad.

Still looking for my eudaimonia.

なぜだ？　なぜボクはまだアナタのことがすきだろう？　くるしいんだ。　いたいんだ。　

あのうさ、　ボクは…　アナタのためなら、　なんでもできるきがするよ。

だから、なぜだ…　ずるいよ…　なぜアナタはボクのことがきづいてくれる？

レス＝ミセラブレス

2009-07-02T11:18:00.002+08:00

ボクは…　じぶんがだいきらいなんだ.　ボクは…　よわいすぎるなんだよ.

ごめんね.

モサイックカケラ２

2009-06-25T23:22:00.011+08:00

Since I'm bored, I shall post a few random pictures of my poly life which would otherwise be left rotting in my picture folder.

Alvin and I after a hard night's work. Believe it or not, everyone else was sleeping as well. Jinghui herself fell asleep shortly after taking this picture.

My near perfect model of Carl. Man, look at it. The resemblance is uncanny.

One of my better charcoal drawings. Which I still think is pretty bad D=

Toby and Isaac make small talk before SPSU's Annual General Meeting. They got blue ties instead of the red ones they were supposed to get. Haha fools.

Toby, Isaac, Ainsley and myself. We make ties look good.

Hijjah and Sophia's birthday celebration!

(From left to right)

Top: Sandy, Alvin, Irene, Jing Xuan, Syaifullah
Middle: Jinghui, Wen Ling, Grace, Yours Truly, Trina
Bottom: Hijjah and Sophia, the birthday girls!

Wait for it...

This is the shit right here. Man, look at Alvin's face. Scaaaary.

モサイックカケラ

2009-06-21T00:23:00.003+08:00

05/30/09

Day Camp with Toby and Nadia.

I took a big bite out of my Sausage and Egg McMuffin, listening to Toby and Nadia's amusing idle banter. Nadia would sing the entire chorus of whatever song was playing on the radio at that moment, before suddenly grunting and exclaiming, "Gah! I hate this song!" Toby, on the other hand, was complaining about how supposedly biased his parents were against him.

"And then there was the time I wanted a bike!" He suddenly declared angrily, releasing his plastic knife and slamming his fist on the table. He was going to rant once more about how his two siblings received something which he had desired badly, and how they were generally treated better than he was. I tried to suppress the urge to grin but could only do so partially, resulting in a strange grimace forming on the left side of my face. I couldn't decide whether I should sympathize with his situation, or just laugh at him like I really really wanted to. I looked at Nadia to see how she had reacted. She was beaming unabashedly, in genuine amusement and delight, as if saying, "Them's the breaks, Tobitch."

We continued sitting there, eating our breakfast and making entertaining yet ultimately useless conversation, all the while wondering what we would be doing for the day. Just then a figure appeared, one whom Toby was not very fond of. He gave a scowl which as typical for Toby ended up looking funny rather than intimidating.

"Come on, Toby," I said, swinging my arm in artificial enthusiasm, "It's SAW time!"

"Huh?" Nadia blinked, knowing full well what I meant, "Khairi, you also don't like him ah?"

"Huh. He say such things about my friend how to like!" I smiled innocuously after faking an angry face to show my 'contempt'. Nadia shot me a suspicious look for a second or two, but she let it slide.

"Yeah, thanks, Khairi," Toby said in half-amusement as he cut another slice from his Hotcakes, "I'm sure that's the most important reason. And not because of-"

"Of course!" I grinned even wider. "What else could there be?" Before Toby could say anything in response I added, "You gonna eat your hash browns?"

06/03/09

HTI assignments.

Today we would have to hand in our HTI films, but for me and Sandy that meant something else on top of our PowerPoint presentation on Plato which we would have to present during the lesson. However, I hadn't finished my own HTI film and had to spend the entire night finishing it, thus forcing Sandy to prepare my half of the presentation as well, an event which left me gripped with guilt for the entire morning.

After some brisk walking to MLT 1 (some really brisk walking) and narrowly avoiding being late, I took my usual seat in the lecture theater, and Sandy took the one in front. She immediately took out her Macbook and opened something. Our PowerPoint presentation. She was still looking over it, probably checking for grammar and consistency errors, and making sure she had included everything our tutor Manish said makes a good presentation. I frowned as the weight of my immense guilt dragged me downwards, causing me to slump in my chair. I opened my mouth to say something, but decided it would be unwise to disturb her while she was doing the work I was supposed to do. Besides, I had a lecture to listen to.

"Hey, Sandy," I said as we sat outside the computer lab like we did every week, waiting for Class 62 to finish so we could go in for our own lesson.

"Hmmm?" Sandy tilted her head expectantly.

"I'm sorry."

"What?" Sandy smiled, as if she had no idea what I was talking about. "Oh, no, it's okay! You had to do your film anyway... Oh, but you have to present the part on the Space of Chora cause I don't know how to explain. Haha."

"Alright!" I said enthusiastically. "Ore ni makasero!"

"What?" This time she really had no idea what I was talking about.

"Er, I mean, leave it to me."

"Haha, okay." She reached into her bag and produced her notebook, which was already opened to the relevant page, and passed it to me. "So basically what you have to say is this..." She pointed to several paragraphs and read them out, while I nodded and tried my hardest to commit them to memory.

"Okay, I think I got it." I said only half-surely.

"Haha, I'm scared," Sandy breathed, measuring her own heartbeat.

"Don't worry, we'll be fine!" I smiled reassuringly. Or at least I think it was reassuring.

"Haha, sure we will."

"Okay, class," Manish announced, "I know you guys have a seminar to go to really soon so I only have a half-hour with you. So I'm gonna give you guys two choices: I'll go through Faris' lecture this week with you as usual, or we'll go straight to this week's presentation, which group's turn is it today?"

Sandy smiled nervously at me as I raised my hand in equal nervousness.

"So," Manish turned to me, "What would you rather do? Do you wanna present today?"

"No," I answered without really thinking, "Please?"

"Alright then," Manish nodded, "I'll have you guys present first thing next lesson when the new term starts."

I heaved a sigh of relief. I was hardly mentally prepared enough to give a presentation. But then I remembered something.

"Sandy!" I exclaimed, wide-eyed, "I'm sorry! You stayed up to do our presentation and we're not even presenting today..."

"No, it's okay," She said after her own sigh of relief, "I like it!"

"Hey, Sandy," I said as we sat listening to an extremely boring seminar about national defense, "I'm sorry."

"Can you stop saying sorry?" Sandy gave an odd kind of half-smile, half-frown.

"I can't help it! My conscience won't let me stop," I frowned back.

"Okay. I forgive you! Is that okay?"

"Hmmm... I'll... Treat you to ice cream! How about that?"

"Haha alright, that'd be great. But not today though."

"Heh, sure thing." I drew in a deep breath. The weight of guilt had finally been lifted.

"Would anyone else like to ask a question?" The emcee asked. A guy in the front raised his hand and walked to the mike stand nearest to him. As was procedure he gave his name and course, then proceeded to ask,

"I heard that if you declare yourself gay you get exempted from NS. Can I ask why homosexuals can get such special treatment?"

The general or major or whatever-he-was who was giving the speech earlier struggled to assure him that homosexuals received no special treatment whatsoever during National Service.

"Why would guys like other guys?" Sandy suddenly asked, "I don't get it."

"Haha, why are you asking me?" I smiled in amusement, "Do I come across as gay to you?"

"..." Sandy said nothing.

"... No way, Sandy," My eyes widened in shock and horror, "Seriously?"

"I didn't say anything!" Sandy replied in panic.

"I'm not gay!"

"I know, I know!"

"I... I like girls!"

"I believe you!"

"Really!"

06/04/09

Hijjah and Sophia's birthday celebration!

06/05/09

Last day of school.

06/16/09

Drama outing. Crazy fun, glad to see everyone again. =)

Astral Finish, baby. Astral Finish.

Japan update another time!

ボクは...

2009-06-04T00:45:00.004+08:00

「オマエはアイツのともだちなんかじゃねよ。
オマエは、　ただじぶんのそんざいアイツにきづけてされたいのストレンジャーだけなんだ。

でもさぁ、　このセカイはそんあもんじゃねえ。
どんなきれいでも、　アイツはフェアリーなんかじゃねえ。
そうだ、　アイツはまほうとか、　マジックパウダーとか、　もってねえぞ。
あぁ、カノジョからメッセージなんだ。　ちょっとな。」

I bit the bullet, and almost choked on the gunpowder. But all's well that ends well...

つ、　か、　れ、　た。

2009-05-30T05:28:00.004+08:00

It's 5.28 in the freaking morning, I've just finished all the freaking GC crap that I had to do, my poster is the ugliest thing in the world, and I'm supposed to meet Toby for the School of Design reunion day camp thing in like three and a half hours, menaing I'll probably get to squeeze in a nice mere hour of sleep. Sleepless Nights +1.

Running total: 4.

Gah it's so hard to look forward to the holidays when I'm starting to seriously doubt if I'll even survive this coming week. Someone help me. An abundance of rewards awaits at the end of another mere seven days, yet these days will be the longest seven of my life! Rewards like... this!

Shut up, you're nothing but stuffed toys!

And now I'm facing the difficult choice of either jumping into my bed right now in an attempt to recover what little energy I can for the day's activities and risk oversleeping, or playing Persona 4 and inevitably becoming exhausted from draining battles with Shadow Yukiko. In any case, hope the day camp's fun.

Choice & Consequence

2009-05-29T01:18:00.002+08:00

Boy did today turn out to be eventful. Or yesterday, since it's 1.19 AM now. Whatever.

Didn't start on my passport until the morning, skipped OC to do it. Hehe. Then rushed to school to finish it off and managed to hand in the whole FDS shebang ten minutes before the submission deadline.

Was supposed to stay behind with Alvin Ong and Jing Xuan to do our freaking posters and print them, but I didn't bring my laptop so there was little I could do.

Decided to go home with Toby instead, following which some... Very interesting events transpired.

Met up with Kenneth for a few rounds of BlazBlue, then went home, but not before me and Kenneth had another one of those hilarious discussions about girls.

I've lost the motivation to do work because the holidays are just around the corner! Damn it! Gotta hang on for one more week, crashing and burning before my arrival in Japan would be totally uncool. Yay, Japan.

Other than that there's not much to say, things lately have been leaving me pretty tired. (I'm always tired lah dammit.) So here's to an exciting and refreshing vacation!

"Dude! If you have to look at least don't make it so obvious!"

"Oh, you mean like this?"

"God dammit!"

The Nowarist - Straightener

2009-05-25T00:45:00.005+08:00

The Nowarist - Straightener

December sunrise
I start aimlessly
And throw the compass away
The sun shines on my way

December rain down
I get under cover
And close eyes sleeplessly
There is comfort in the sound

It reminds me of your beat
It reminds me of your beat
It reminds me of your beat
It reminds me of your beat

December sunset
I start aimlessly
And throw the old map away
The stars light my way up

It reminds me of your eyes
It reminds me of your eyes
It reminds me of your eyes
It reminds me of your eyes

Nowarist
I believe it won't be very long
The sun shines on our way
Nowarist
I believe it won't be very long
The stars light our way up

Nowarist
I believe it won't be very long
The sun shines on our way
Nowarist
I believe it won't be very long
The stars light our way up

Nowarist
I believe

I'm not sure what a 'nowarist' is supposed to be, but I get the feeling it's a made-up word originating from the phrase 'no worries', that is, a person with no worries is a 'nowarist'. Nice.

Night at the Tekken Balik Rumah Toby I'm Gonna Kill You BlazBlue ftw.

2009-05-23T22:44:00.004+08:00

Went to catch Night at the Museum 2 yesterday with Isaac, Toby, Ainsley, Nadia and some others from Class 57. Hadn't seen Toby for a long time, it was great catching up, talking about Tekken, teaching him Malay to Nadia's severe disapproval and trying to coax him into playing BlazBlue. =D

The movie itself was awesome. I was a big fan of the first, having owned it on DVD and watched it countless times. But I dare say that this was better! There were just way too many golden quotes in that movie, all of which I can't recall right now for some reason D= Bottom line, great movie. Go see it. Bring the kids.

Went to play pool with Jing Xuan and Alvin Ong today, but Alvin wanted to try playing BlazBlue. HAHA. Blazblue mania ftw. He ended up buying too many tokens and paid for his pool game using said tokens. I put them to good use of course.

"I beat Boss Ragna and all I got was this lousy 'Congratulations' screen."

It's alright bro, I know you didn't mean to say it. Though you could still make it up to me by making me the President of our Hate Club. Haha. Best club ever.

Ichimaru Gin Tobyo, will never forgive.

Insomnia - Wheesung

2009-05-14T00:35:00.006+08:00

Although it sounds pretty much the same as Craig David's Insomnia to me, I like Wheesung's version better, 'cause I think it has nicer lyrics. Asian artists always come up with the most artistic, deep lyrics. Haha okay that sounded borderline racist but never mind.

Funny that I should discover this song now of all times.

Wednesday

2009-05-13T23:30:00.005+08:00

"Wah, you still haven't finished eating ah?"

"Yeah. Dunno why. I'm like, damn hungry but I got no appetite."

"Why I see you today like not very hyper ah?"

"..." "Haha, yah hor. Even though I had the most sleep in a long time last night. Damn weird."

"You sit beside Sandy until frozen is it? She got Frost Aura or what?"

"Haha, no lor. Sandy got Skadi hor, you know how scary or not." (Haha, Sandy, if you ever see this, it's just a joke. Which you probably wouldn't understand anyway D=)

"Haha. But I think all design students like that one lor. Got projects then damn anxious, then don't need sleep liao. But once they relax can't get enough sleep. I also feel damn tired even though I slept for ten hours."

"... Yeah, that must be it. Definitely."

I still love Wednesdays though.

きっと大丈夫～！！

2009-05-13T02:04:00.003+08:00

Handed in the first VAS assignment today. The night before was total epic fail, I procrastinated like mad for my color schemes, and when I finally wanted to work on the postcards, it was like, 4 AM. And I couldn't find my sketchbook anywhere. After searching high and low to no avail, I went into a fitful and undeserved sleep.

Woke up at 7 to discover that my sketchbook had mysteriously put itself in my parents' room. Wtf. Was panicking like mad by now, chiong-ed postcards until 8.45, then cabbed to school.

Reached school at 9.20, and chiong-ed some more! And handed in the damned assignment in the nick of time. Everything I did is super ugly, I swear, but at least I managed to complete everything. Suck on that, VAS!

Today is a small reprieve from all the stress and fatigue, since all the new assignments are due next week. Plush toy and kinetic model! The kinetic model seems pretty hard though, I'm pretty sure it'll add to my sleepless night count. Three so far!

Also, I got into the Human Resources Department of the Singapore Polytechnic Student Union! Despite my failure of an experience in the Anderson Student Council I decided to try out for SPSU, because Zepar and Iara seemed to be having so much fun being GLs at the Orientation Camp. Hope it'll be my turn next year! Human Resources doesn't seem to have much to do though, just... Passing messages and stuff? D=

Isaac got into Corporate,
Toby got into Sports (which Isaac wanted),
Ainsley got into Publication. (Which I wanted! Freaking dammit!)
Also, most of Althalos got a spot in SPSU! I sense some string pulling, hehe.

A lot of things have happened lately, both good and bad, but rather than being happy or sad or anything else I feel really... Tired. And it's not just because of the previous Prickboys either. Still, life is good, and no matter how daunting an obstacle may appear, I'm sure everything will be alright in the end.

Am extremely jealous of numerous girls' constant comments on how good-looking (supposedly) Isaac and Toby are. Especially Toby. "Toby hen cute leh!" D=

Feels like insomnia.

「ウツクシサ」というものは...　いったいなんだろう？

2009-05-11T23:24:00.003+08:00

このセカイに、　テにいれられないものがあるよ。　でもね、テにいれられないんだから、　「ウツクシイ」といえるものなんだよ。

Sunny Day

2009-05-11T03:13:00.003+08:00

"SAJC has.... Smokin' hot girls...?"

That was me, approximately three months ago, when I was still rotting at home waiting for poly to start, while most of my friends were enjoying the view at their respective junior colleges. Especially Augustine. SAJC bastard. D=

But now that I've spent a month in poly, I'm pretty much happy with where I am, the people are great, the environment's great, the assignments suck... Wait, that last one's not really a plus, is it. Oh well!

The past week's been one hell of a ride, for some unfathomable reason I was late for four days out of five. Yeah, I have the best luck ever. And all of it was only made worse by all the Brickboys we've had to do. There was Brickboy, then there was Super Brickboy, then Super Brickboy Final Tuned, and finally Super Brickboy XX Accent Core Plus. And I never got to make Nirvana either =(

But as they say, out of the frying pan and into the open fire. I now have a crapload of assignments to do for just one freaking module (Visual freaking Arts Studio), along with the ever snowballing amount of work to be done in my HTI journal. (Yeah, drama folks, poor ol' me still has a journal to keep. Man, I thought we were done with that shit.)

Still! Life goes on, eh? There's only twelve more weeks (excluding holidays) till the end of Semester One! Nothing to it but... Fight! Kinda like what I told a certain someone during the first day of orientation, when we were playing that scissors paper stone, evolution-type thing game.

"Scissors, paper, stone!"

"Ah! I lost..."

"Heh... Sorry about that..."

"Haha, now I'm an egg!"

"Haha, yeah... But don't worry about it! You can still do it! Ganbatte!"

"Haha, okay, okay. See you!"

"Yeah... Bye."

なんでもないんです。

2009-04-28T03:06:00.002+08:00

It's 3:07 AM, I finally finished the stupid color wheel thing not too long ago, and now I'm waiting for the class' handouts to finish printing so that I can finally get some damn sleep. First week wasn't too bad, but the rate at which homework is given just blows hard. Super Brickboy Final Tuned is due on Thursday. Goddammit I won't be able to make a Nirvana! D= Oh well. On the whole school isn't exactly something to look forward to, but here's hoping there'll be some things to change that in the future. Like Semester Two.

Noel Vermillion ftw.

「ゲンカイ」

2009-04-24T00:21:00.004+08:00

もう…　そろそろボクのゲンカイなんです。　でも…　ボクは…　ぜったいあきらめるわけにはいかない。

Obligatory Orientation Post!

2009-04-17T23:28:00.006+08:00

Monday
Met up with Isaac half an hour before reporting time, only to realize that there was no one at the sports hall and we looked like complete retards (more so for Isaac, but that's not the point. =D) so we decided to go to the canteen to chill before orientation started.

When it did we found out that we would not be grouped into our respective courses like we thought we would be, but instead we would been assigned an orientation group. Scanning the many lists pasted across the wall of the sports hall for our names, we eventually discovered that we were not in the same group. Which SUCKED.

After a bout of cursing and swearing, we went our separate ways to join our individual groups, (Group Seven for Isaac, Group Nine for me) and I sat in silence amongst my group members, easily becoming bored out of my mind. So Isaac and I decided to complain through SMS about how boring sitting around waiting for nothing was.

Khairi: At this point all I'm doing is looking around for chio bu's.
Isaac: That's what I'm doing too. The door opening jutsu is so weak.
Khairi: Haha, they no chakra open door. D= Did you find anyone? I think the girl in the other group is quite okay!
Isaac: Where siol. Damn it la. I haven't got a chance to see my group's. Damn it.
Khairi: To the right, to the right! And you can take one quick look behind, it's okay!
Isaac: Nah, later on if there is some team bonding shit. Then we will see. Or touch. Erm what?!

Soon after the group members introduced themselves and we played the usual ice breakers and bonding games and such, following which we did mass games. School of Design Blow Wind Blow for the freaking win.

And then after lunch was briefing. Which was epic fail.

Tuesday
Don't you love how I ended the Monday section? I'm not so much a long post kinda guy so I'm getting somewhat lazy. =/ Today we did, um, nothing but painting? Well, not so much painting as filling in a pre-drawn mural with color. That's all. It also happened to be the best day in the history of forever.

Wednesday
Today was the Amazing Race a la SP, which was fun but at the same time draggy and tiring. But in any case it was much better than the Course Overview/Flag Day briefing later that day, which was just draggy and tiring. Today was also the day when we found out that our orientation groups would be our actual classes for the first semester. A School of Design-exclusive thing, I think. Yay.

Vincent's message alert tone is just freaking awesome.

Thursday
My Group got assigned to Bedok for Flag Day with Isaac, Toby and Ainsley's, but the three of them were freaking slackers who went to the coffeeshop instead of like, doing their jobs. I paired up with Vincent, which was kinda demoralizing since he had money pouring like water into his tin. I'm notoriously bad at collecting donations. I swear it's racism! Though at the end of the day I managed to collect $37.10, more than a certain tall Chinese individual.

After Flag Day we decided to meet up with the even taller Anna Damn Foo to go the Orientation Party, and we got intro'd to her friends Johann (HAHA ZEIG HEIL) and Jonathan. (Um, my name's not Kuri D=) We headed for the concourse where the party was held together but ended up getting separated on the way. Haha.

We still managed to run into a lot of the other Althalos members though, Izzat, Guru, Jack, Andreas, Rau, and Jian Wei. It was great catching up with everyone, totally looking forward to Althalos outing next week.

Despite going to the pre-party we didn't eat much, and when we wanted to go to the actual party we saw that the queue was really really really long. Epic fail. So instead we decided to head back. Met up with Alvin for the continuation of the previous post.

Friday
Reached school at around 9.45, only to discover that SPICE training was at 2 instead of 10 and that the only thing going on currently was the material fair. Bought our freaking heavy course materials and decided to head home and put the shit down before coming back for SPICE training. After praying at AMK it was 1.45, meaning I had only 15 minutes to reach Dover. Took 10 minutes to find a stupid cab and ended up reaching school at 2.15, at the cost of 10.80.

Had previously hoped that training would be done in our actual courses, but it was done in our orientation groups/classes, same as always. SPICE training wasn't as boring as everyone said it would be though, a small compensation. Also, Vincent's class transfer was unsuccessful, which just freaking sucks. We still have to hang out, dude.

Slacked in the library for a little while with Isaac and Ainsley (Toby was off inducing epileptic fits on hot girls, I think.), and after that made my way to Bishan for more BlazBlue, the only thing that can distract me for any reasonable period of time.

Played against the same Taokaka guy I fought for the past few days, who said I improved a lot since yesterday, haha. Yay. After leaving the arcade for a bit while waiting for Alvin (who forced me to make a Ragna version of this blogskin in commemoration of our rivalry, it's on his blog) to come, I lamented to Cleon about how I hadn't seen a Rachel user even once since I started playing.

And when I came back there was a Rachel user. And a good one at that. Couldn't beat him once despite my many attempts, and after 17 wins he probably got tired of playing or something and got beaten by another Jin user. Dude was pretty cool, taught me a few tricks with Jin, and told me that he'd been playing for TWO WEEKS since that was when Bugis (and Singapore) first got a BlazBlue machine. So instead of being at a three-day disadvantage like I thought I was, I was at a two-week disadvantage. And I'd been playing for three days. Greaaaaaaaat.

We messed around with some of the other characters until closing time, and ran into Danny, Yingyu, Jared, Asraf and some other former 4/3 people at AMK Station. Yingyu was pressuring me into telling her racist jokes. Like, major pressure. Ask Danny! And Jared still owes me five bucks. Freaking ass.

And here I am now. Truthfully now that orientation's over I'm not looking forward to school in the slightest. Everything's just so messed up for reasons unknown. Guess I'll just have to fight it out for the first semester. It's only 15 weeks after all.

If doing the right thing wasn't so freaking hard, maybe more people would.

Calamity Strikes!

2009-04-16T00:05:00.007+08:00

Today after orientation I met up with Alvin at AMK Hub for our semi-weekly round of KOF. He took his own sweet ass time to get there, so I was getting pretty bored with using Iori, Kyo Classic, and K'. Well, Alvin arrived fifty-three years later, we played a few rounds, I won cause I'm cool, then we decided to head over to Virtualand where the AI's tougher.

Upon reaching the arcade though, I was thoroughly surprised to see that the usual KOF crowd was absent. Looking around confusedly, I noticed a familiar face, at an unfamiliar machine. I glanced at it, and I couldn't believe my eyes. I stared hard at it, but it was just as hard to believe.

I was looking at a gigantic, imposing figure, with a red body, ridiculously bulky armor, and glasses.

It was Iron freakin' Tager.

And the machine was BlazBlue.

I had already previously accepted the fact that I wouldn't be able to play BlazBlue until the console version release in July, so this was like a freaking dream come true. I was hyper, I was ecstatic, and the headaches and chest pains faded, at least for a while. Hearing that the machine came in a whole three days ago disappointed me, but only very slightly.

I played my virgin match as Jin (as had been my intention for months) against Han Sen-sensei, but I lost. (Duh?)

Alvin wanted to have a go too, and despite my strong objections, he picked the top-tier but expert-level character, Arakune. Freaking ass, I told you not to. He lost too.

Not wanting to restrict myself to Jin, I challenged Sensei to a rematch and picked a character which surprised Alvin and even myself: Carl Clover. The little boy with the stupid hat who refers to a robot as 'Nee-san'. I won.

And then I lost to Alvin's Ragna. Freaking Ragna. After that, I decided to try out every character in the game, and the machine's players alternated between Alvin, myself, and Sensei. Also, Noel Vermillion is the freaking love. (And uh, Noel = pronounced 'Noelle' = girl = I'm not gay.)

The atmosphere there was awesome, I'd never had so much fun playing an arcade game in my entire life. The crowd was as excited as we were, and some of them were even chanting along with Bang. How crazy is that!

Bang: *smash*
Crowd: FUU!
Bang: *whack*
Crowd: RIN!
Bang: *boom*
Crowd: KA!
Bang: *BANG*
Crowd: ZAAAAAAAAAAAAN~!

The highlight of the night for me was my final rematch with Sensei, a Jin mirror match. My Jin won, though I suspect he might have been holding back a fair bit. It made me immensely happy though. And a tough rivalry has already formed between my Jin and Alvin's Ragna. Learn your Inferno Divider juggles first, noob. Lawl. =D

It's weird for a video game to give you motivation, isn't it? Hopefully I'll be able to do the right thing when the time comes. And at any rate I'm ready to rock the shit out of the arcade tomorrow. Bring it on, Lam Jun Yong.

As Ragna always says, "Mada owari janee zo!"

Noel Vermillion <3

Blazin' Beat!

2009-04-12T23:25:00.002+08:00

Alright, school's starting in just a few hours! My life has only just begun! WHOOO!

Things To Look Forward To
+SCHOOL! (Like um, duh? Yeah.)
+Japanese lessons!
+JAPAN!
+90-minute journeys to school!
+Using the art module to improve my retarded drawing!
+BLAZBLUE! (RAGNAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!)
+HAVOK SIOL!

Things To Lament
-SCHOOL! D=
-No idea what CCA to join!
-Art Module! My drawing is retarded!
-90-minute journeys to school!
-Anderson =(
-SIALAH LAMENT IS MEAN WHAT SIOL

Gives You Hell - The All-American Rejects

2009-04-10T01:14:00.004+08:00

Going to KL in a matter of hours! I haven't heard this song in a freaking long time. In fact, I can only remember the first time I heard it in my dad's car late last year (I think?). I loved it, but after that I totally forgot about it. Thanks to the power that is Andreas' blog though, I've rediscovered it! Such a kickass song.

Gives You Hell - The All-American Rejects

I wake up every evening, with a big smile on my face
And it never feels out of place

And you're still probably working at a 9 to 5 pace
I wonder how bad that tastes

When you see my face hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell

Now where's your picket fence love
And where's that shiny car,
And did it ever get you far

You've never seem so tense love
I've never seen you fall so hard,
Do you know where you are

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well hope it gives you hell

Hope it gives you hell

Tomorrow you'll be thinking to yourself
Where'd it all go wrong, the list goes on and on

And truth be told I miss you
And truth be told I'm lying

When you see my face hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well hope it gives you hell

Now you'll never see, what you've done to me
You can take back your memories they're no good to me
And he's here's all your lies,
You can look me in the eyes
With that sad sad look that you wear so well

When you see my face hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
If you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well
Then he's a fool, you're just as well hope it gives you hell

When you see my face hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you walk my way hope it gives you hell
Hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song and you sing along oh you'll never tell
Then you're the fool, I'm just as well
Hope it gives you hell
When you hear this song I hope that it will give you hell
You can sing along I hope that it puts you through hell

TRANSMUTE YOUR MOM

2009-04-08T21:07:00.005+08:00

Went to school today with Isaac to configure my damn laptop, finally. It's such a freaking shame that despite the fact that our course only has 60 people, we're not in the same class. LIKE WTF IS THIS SIOL?! TRYING TO SEPE- SEPAR- PULL THE MATS APART IZZIT? I TRANSMUTE YOUR MOM THEN YOU KNOW! In all seriousness this puts me in a worrying situation. I might not be able to go to School of Design camp since my parents might be wanting to go to KL, which means when school finally comes around I won't have any friends! D= Stupid stupid school, why do you even need to divide 60 people into three classes?!

Watched Natsu no Arashi! on the train on the way to school. It's awesome how I'll be able to watch one anime episode during the journey, now my decision to abstain from a PSP won't sting so much. Ran into Ben on the way, and because I'm way more skilled than him I finished configuring my laptop much faster. Okay, actually it's because he had his own externally-purchased laptop so there was much more to be done, but that's hardly important, is it?

After the configuration we decided to eat at Mac's, and ended up taking six years to find the place. Stupid maze of a school. Though it was still worth it for that mega cheap McSpicy meal. =D

After that, we decided to take a look at our school building so that we would have less trouble finding the place when school came around. After another six years, we reached Block T2, the supposed School of Design, only to discover that the first floor was comprised of nothing but what seemed to be human cloning labs. Consulting the directory out of confusion, we were puzzled to see that the only floor that had anything to do with the word 'design' was the sixth floor. Does that mean that... The School of Design only has one floor?! Seems too stupid to be true, but if that really is the case, I'm going to commit suicide and transmute my hair.

Isaac wanted to buy the SP shirt, so I thought I'd get a couple myself. Hell, they're so cheap I might get three more so that I won't have to think about what to wear every day.

Following that we started to make our way home, since Isaac had to await the arrival of his Holy Mattresses. Watched Azumanga Daioh on the train to AMK, then hit the arcade for a while to practise my Iori/Kyo-C combos. Yeah, "Asobi wa owari da! Nake! Sakebe! Soshite shi-ne~!" is like music to my ears. Beats "GUNFLAME! GU-GU-GUNFLAME GUNFLAME!" any day.

Now school is around the corner, and the issue of School of Design camp still weighs heavily on my mind. Along with all the ghost stories that Minshan told me about SP D=

Red bridge = bad!

ボクを... イライラするな!

2009-04-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

キサマ! キサマはいつから､ボクのカゲになってしまったんだ?!

うせろ! メザワリなんだよ!

SIALAH! ALTHALOS!

2009-04-03T20:58:00.017+08:00

I got back from SPSU Camp a while back, and being the lazy bastard that I am, I procrastinated blogging about it for a while. It's not my fault. Really. In fact, I was planning to give a blow-by-blow, updating my phone whenever something new happened and then pasting it over to my blog. And it went fine for the first hour. But I got carried away with all the goings-on at camp. And besides, the fun I had and the awesomeness of all the people I had met couldn't hope to be expressed in mere words. Unless those words were, "EH, SIALAH! POWER!"

Why? Because via a convoluted series of events, my camp group, Althalos, became the Mat Group, with its own Mat Clap and Mat Cheer. Yes, my dear Andersonians, for three days and two nights, and even on frequent occasions after, I talked, acted like, and essentially became a mat. Me. Good ol' Muhammad Khairi Bin Sumardi. I'm not really sure how it happened so let me retrace my steps a little.

I think it started with me meeting Isaac Ang Hates-His-Chinese-Name-So-He-Hasn't-Told-It-To-Me-Enough-Times-For-Me-To-Remember-It. He seemed a pretty cool guy at first, but for some reason I thought he would be kind of quiet. Boy, was I wrong.

He turned out to be the craziest bastard in existence, who would without hesitation tell you that the back of your head is ridickalous and 'YOUR MOM'. And he's also in my course!

So all the way to the campsite we laughed like idiots, discussed obscure YouTube references and theorized (very accurately I might add) that the Konoha Village was originally a gathering place for all of the Fourth Hokage's bastard children. Yes. Including the First Hokage. Time travel ftw.

Somewhere in the middle of that, the following conversation took place between Isaac and me.

"You know, actually there's one accent I think I can do pretty well."

"Oh yeah? What's that?" *expects Indian accent, because that's what it always is.*

"Mat accent."

"... Oh, really? Try it then." And he did. And I laughed my ass off.

And since then we started talking like mats, and the mat accent spread like wildfire until the whole group started using it. Thus, Althalos became the Mat Group, and the Mat Cheer and Mat Clap came into being.

During the course of the camp many fun games were played, great food was eaten (mostly by Andreas, of course), many catchphrases and inside jokes were made ("Nin!" "Da ze.") and many memories were created, which would be much too exhausting to describe in detail!

Therefore, since a picture paints a thousand words, why not let the photos show how much fun I had at one of the best camps of my life?

The Blow On the Toilet Paper Game. Yes, I look retarded.

The parents of Althalos, Zepar and Iara! Freaking awesome names, right? I know!

Zepar: "Alright, for our next activity... WE'RE GOING TO SEE METALLICA LIVE IN CONCERT!"

Isaac: "SIALAH POWER BODOH!"

Izzat: "OH SNAPZ!"

The Girls: *completely oblivious*

Everyone else: "WTF?!"

A mat will always look cool, even when a trash bag blindfold is taped to his freaking eyes. Unfortunately, I'm not really a mat.

If I had a dollar for every person who wanted to slap Isaac's face, I'd be freaking rich! =O

Just playin' with our balls.

Althalos, chilling after the best campfire performance in the universe. At least I didn't have to be Flo Rida anymore.

We were trying to give the mat face but we ended up looking like retards. Cool retards, that is.

Althalos power siol! Though Guru can't be seen. Sorry Guru =(

The guys of Althalos...

And the girls of Althalos.

Among other awesome events that were not photographed were the telematch (sliding on detergent = best thing ever) and Isaac and me teaching Anna Foo-Hates-Her-Chinese-Name-So-She-Hasn't-Told-It-To-Me-At-All and the other girls the dance steps to... The Wonder Girls' Nobody. I want nobody, nobody but you!

All in all, it was an amazing camp, and I'd like to thank all of my fellow mats for making it the awesome experience that it was.

Althalos, aka the Mat Group, is comprised of:

Zepar: The Daddy.

Iara: The Mommy.

Isaac: The original 'Mat Cina'.

Izzat: The prankster/magician. YOU SHOULD TOTALLY GET HIM TO DO HIS WATER BOTTLE CAP TRICK OMG IT'S SO AMAZING.

Andreas: The one with the insatiable appetite. Please don't eat this blog =(

Jack: Black Metal. 'Nuff said.

Guru: As his name implies, Da Mastah. Larger than life!

Hadley: "WAH QUEEN CHIO SIA QUEEN CHIO SIA." LOL.

Jian Wei: The Holy Teller of Time! If he doesn't want to to tell you the time, prepare to cry. A lot. But you won't know when you're crying.

Alvin: Studious people creep me out! Haha, kidding.

Anna: Also known as "Miss Fender", "The One-Woman Band", and "Demonic Fish Fingers".

Nana: The Aisaka Taiga of the real world. I kid you not. I wonder if she gets free bus rides. Just kidding =D

Pearlyn: KEEP QUIET AND LISTEN! NIN!

Rau: Anna's demonic fish finger partner. Also, thank you for sparing me the fate of becoming Flo Rida.

Wen Li: The girl who fed me the unnpeeled orange during the 4 Senses game. Best unpeeled orange ever. And likes to call me Curry! It's primary school all over again!

Verena: I swear to God at first I thought her name was Marina! Thank God I didn't try any Marina Bay jokes!

Mei Rong: One of my most frequent 'nin' victims. Thank you for providing me with an outlet to vent my frus- NIN!

Shi Ting: The girl who's too quiet! Catching the mouse is fun!

"Guru: What's up, brother?!

Isaac: ... Siol!"

｢ナ｣､｢カ｣､｢マ｣｡

2009-03-12T00:28:00.002+08:00

I was suffering at work as usual today, when I suddenly thought about how much I missed Anderson. Right then, a dizzying array of sights and sounds invaded my brain, and under the severe fatigue I couldn't even hope to comprehend it at first. But then they slowly, surely made themselves known, and I had to chuckle at their familiarity, and how some of them were funny at the time and even funnier on hindsight. They were memorable quotes from the most awesome people in the universe.

"Oh, whatever. Hilary Duff is like, so much better. She even appeared on Maxim!"

"I'm going to give my three sons mohawks and dress them up in potato sacks =D"

"Dey, I fucking stress, dey."

"Can you stop saying 'What's up' like it's cool to say 'what's up'?!"

"Watermelons are green on the inside whaaaat! *confused stare*"

"THE MOLECULES OF THE BALL WILL FUSE WITH THE MOLECULES OF YOUR HAND"

"Pretty? They're okay what, they're quite... *places hands on both cheeks a la Macaulay Culkin and tilts head very slightly* Kawaii ne?"

"Khairi should stand in the middle! Graduation of tone! Hahaha!"

"So the guy who lost four times in Street Fighter started kaopei-ing the other guy... Then out of nowhere two gangs appeared! And they were like, 'Nanda yo?! . . .SOL BADGUY?!'"

"China will conquer us and we'll become the People's Republic of Singapore. After that, we'll take over America. And then Mars."

"You should read Team Medical Dragon! It's good! It's got nudity! =D"

"Mount Everest Hospital!"

"Thumbtack sharper than marble meh?"

"... Why does L take two days to talk to the freaking doctor?"

"You pronounced my name wrongly! It's 'Yu Jun'! 'YUUUUUUUUUUU JUN!'"

"U-um... Can you talk to my parents about this? Because I'm really not supposed to say anything..."

"*badly pronounced* Gerek!"

"Thank you, I know I very tall!" (This statement is totally untrue, by the way.)

And there were so many more lines I recalled at that time, but if I tried to remember them all now my brain would turn into a knife and stab me in the face for stressing it. Long story short, you guys are awesome, I miss Anderson. SCHOOL START FASTER DANG IT

ウソォォォォォォォ~!

2009-02-01T01:19:00.002+08:00

[ K' ] La Glotonería says:
DAMMIT!

[HaHiFoS] says:
HAH you thought it was a secret?!

[ K' ] La Glotonería says:
Was it seriously that freaking obvious? I'm so embarrassed =.=

[ K' ] La Glotonería says:
I mean, come on! Jared didn't know!

[HaHiFoS] says:
that's cos he's JARED

[ K' ] La Glotonería says:
GAH

Seriously.... What the heeeeeeeeeeeeell~?! I'm going to hit myself upside the head with a brick. Please excuse me.

Tuts My Barreh

2009-01-18T17:03:00.001+08:00

2009

2009-01-03T00:45:00.002+08:00

Just so you know, one of my New Year's resolutions is to write a New Year post that is actually dated 01/01.

2008 has been, for all intents and purposes, a very trying year. Full of hurdles and milestones, hopes and disappointments. 2008 being my senior year at Anderson didn't make it any easier to stomach; the idea of separating myself from the school I had come to know and love almost seemed unbearable. There was many a time when I thought I couldn't take anymore and had to wonder whether I would snap like the proverbial twig.

But all's well that ends well. We've all braved the storm and arrive at the horizon of an exciting new year, full of untold prospects, endless possibilities. Who knows what the future will hold, especially for those awaiting their O Level results? Needless to say, nobody does, but everyone's eager to make the leap anyway.

Funnily enough, whenever I try to look back on the year, I zoom all the way back to 2005 instead. To my first nervous steps into the school hall in my unforgivably hideous primary school uniform. How after getting the wrong class several times finally managed to make my way to Temp 1/4, but not before noticing a weird-looking kid in Temp 1/5 sketching a picture of Cloud (Not a cloud, Cloud.) who turned out to be none other than Jared. Following this, I got into an argument from two boys in his class who were laughing at my uniform. Even though I can't exactly blame them, I was still pretty pissed. In the middle of our spat though, this annoying girl sitting in front of me suddenly turned around and very unreasonably told me to shut up. Now that was like a slap in the face to me, so I argued with her too. That girl was Yiyin, who, while slightly deranged sometimes is not at all annoying and only unreasonably rich.

From then on it fast-forwards the rest of my amazing Anderson life: My first meeting with Prakash, Danny, and Rohit, how I initially thought Fadhil was a weird kid, CCA Screening, hanging out at the playground after ATC, my first ATC Seniors' Farewell Party, Rohit leaving for India, Rohit coming back, SYF, O Levels, Prom Night, our own ATC Seniors' Farewell Party, to where I am right now. It's been a real ride, and I have everyone to thank for it. Thank you everyone for making 2008 and all the years before it worthwhile.

Here's to a truly awesome 2009, which is a good-looking numeral somehow, so it just has to be awesome.

=.=

2008-12-16T01:27:00.001+08:00

Blogger irritates my life. =.=

'So What'?

2008-12-13T22:56:00.005+08:00

Although this post is pretty late because most of my day was spent sleeping and chugging Panadol, yesterday was the awesome ATC senior farewell party organized by our even more awesome juniors. I can't recall the last time I had so much fun during these boooooring holidays (other than getting to Stage 7 at the KOF: MI machine at Hub, but that's a completely different story.) It was fun catching up with you guys, I know for a fact that I'll miss you all. Cue lame joke from Harris:

"When is it raining and not raining at the same time? When you're under an umbrella! Heeheehee!" Believe it or not, I'm actually going to miss hearing crap like this.

Also, I doubt I'm going to meet someone who's as big an otaku as me, like my mom. My Cassandra mom, not my actual mom.

And there are so many other juniors I should thank for so many things but if I wrote about each and every one of you this post would take me 23461290673984 years to complete and I would die of illness/old age/exhaustion before that.

So to sum up this post, I'd like to thank my juniors for a wonderful three years (or two, or one) at ATC. It's been a real slice of the proverbial pie.

For the benefit of the seniors who were unfortunately unable to make it, below are the lyrics of "2005-2008", the wonderful song written by the oh-so-eccentric Min Yi, set to the tune of Pink's "So What". (Lyrics are courtesy of Danny since my own lyric sheet decided to go AWOL. Thanks, CM.)

So now it's the end of oh-eight,
Please stay for four years more.
ATC juniors all grown up,
Now seniors we love for sure.

The sixteen girls and four big boys
The 20 of batch '08.
This funky song is for you
Get ready and sit tight.

Na na na na na na na,
We'll start with Saranya.
Na na na na na na na,
The friendly one who loves

To hug us,
And has great cheekbones
Yes we do notice
And you look gorgeous!

Now Aliya,
Your art is damn good
We like your quips too
So please keep smiling~

KHAIRI!
YOU KNOW WE
JUST CAN'T STOP
ADMIRING YOUR WIT
AND CUTE HAIR ;D

Prakash you can act
And are responsible
Even while being wild.
Uh, L-O-L, Uh.

Bryan is very hyper,
We love how you bounce about. Whee!
Your initiative is awesome,
Something we all miss.

Syat, a great Tech member,
Adorable smiles abound.
It's cool how you can see clearly,
Give tips when things are tough.

Na na na na na na na
Yusu and Jessica rock
Na na na na na na na
We're glad you're in drama!

Soo Hong Kit,
Danny you are mad,
But in a good way,
That we all adore!

And Ulfah!
Your funny lame jokes,
Interesting thinking,
Sure make us happy...

Jacq Choo
You're not shy,
You will fly,
If someone dares you
And that's cool

Meenatchi smiles much,
Does costume, make-up
Like it's the best thing on Earth.

Sofihah, you're
Like our Amah!
Not that you're old!
Just that you care.

Shalini can
Act as gypsies;
Her pretty smile
Is very bright...

And Vikknesh!
Queen of satire,
Infectious laughter
That can fill whole rooms.

Afiqa
The wacky president,
Who rallies all of us
To be good darlings

Hui Xian!
Friendly girl!
Thank you for
Being nice to us

So, Monica
Your voice is lovely
You're never unhappy
And we admire that in you

Jacq Koh
You know
You're the highest... Girl around

Wild crazy ass~

The one who's up for fun times.

And lastly!
Tripti
You give great ideas.

Seniors ❤
We love you so much ❤
Please hug and kiss us ❤
Cos we'll be missing you tonight ❤

ふざけるな...

2008-12-04T00:12:00.001+08:00

ボクのはなしちょっときいてくれ! ったく...

Prom Night (Late, yes, I know.)

2008-11-18T03:11:00.035+08:00

Hmmm... Fadhil here reminds me of some famous black guy, but I can't remember who.

Uh... Prakash took this picture.

You see how much better it is when Prakash doesn't take the picture?

Man, Tania looks good even with my hat.

Since when were Farah's eyes wider than mine?!

Jacq seems very surprised for some reason...

Ah... So that's what she was after.

It's like looking at an elephant and a mouse. A very short mouse.

Is that uncertainty on my face, or is it something else? Fear...?

Is it just me, or do I look 1598713460192 times darker in this photo?

Wen-chan looks like a hobo! xDD

Wen-chan in this instance bears a striking resemblance to a drunk Stephen Chow.

By the time you figure out that the person on the left is the impeccably-dressed Saiful, and that the person on the right is Farah, your eyesight would have been degraded considerably. Hahaha.

Rachel hopes that wearing the hat will make her as tall as me.

Alvin obviously has perverted designs on Effa.

She is... Aliya Fierce.

Have you watched the second episode like I told you to? =.=

It's okay, I can forgive you for having a kid with Bryan. I think.

あそびはおわりだ! なけ! さけべ! そうしてしね~!

I think this was the widest my eyes were for the entire night =.=

HAHAHAHAHAHA PEACOCK HAIR

Two Malays and half an Indian.

Sure she's short, but, uh... Well... She's Diana!

Just one of my 213286234981 mothers. =S

No matter how I look at it it seems Yusaku painfully forced Gang Hao to smile.

Prakash and Sofi in the midst of an engaging conversation.

Prakash and Sofi after realizing that there was a camera in front of them.

After the prom, Ganesh and I planned our next big heist.

Sujie! =D

Doreen! =D (She totally should've won Prom Queen)

Yusaku, during his mid-life crisis, can only rely on Fadhil for support.

Watch as Wen-chan makes his own nose disappear! =O

Remember, Nicholas is watching.

Begin

2008-10-20T00:00:00.001+08:00

さあ... いまから... はじめるよ｡

Farewell.

2008-09-14T18:03:00.000+08:00

Sadly, this will be my last blog post until the 11th of November. See ya.

L

2008-08-29T23:15:00.002+08:00

ボクは...アナタのLになりたい｡
でも...

Catharsis

2008-08-16T16:20:00.001+08:00

Characters

2008-05-28T22:15:00.004+08:00

The most beautiful things about being a writer, and probably the ultimate reason why I want to be one, are the characters. Each character has its own significance and meaning, as each is born from an idea of yours that is manifested into a living being. Characters can be used as devices to express your views on a subject, be it explicitly or inconspicuously.

As a result, you hold a deep sense of attachment to your characters, because they represent what you believe in so strongly. Kai, Ryu, Nate, Emily, I treasure them all as my cherished creations. Sometimes I like a character so much, I use them in later works. For example, although Nate and Emily are in the novel that I am working on, their first appearance was in fact in an essay I wrote for the Commonwealth Writing Competition last year. Because I liked what the two of them represent, I chose to include them in the novel.

Of course, this isn't exclusive to books. Other media have ideas that are effectively expressed through characters, such as Ky Kiske from the Guilty Gear series of video games, who represents devotion and faith that is ardent almost to a fault, or Hyuuga Neji from Naruto, a symbol of the fatalistic ideology of a predetermined destiny, that the actions are free but will always work toward an inevitable end. There are other excellent examples, but the character whom I found the most intriguing is none other than James Sunderland.

James Sunderland is the protagonist of the video game Silent Hill 2. From the onset, he seems a normal person. But then he leaves the restroom the game starts in, looks over the foggy town of Silent Hill from the Observation Deck and makes a seemingly innocuous confession ("I got a letter.") and one can already sense that something is amiss.

James has recently received a letter from his wife, Mary, who tells him that she is waiting for him at their 'special place' in Silent Hill. There is just one problem: Mary died of an illness three years ago. James wonders why he has even bothered coming to Silent Hill when he knows that Mary is dead. Yet, even though he witnessed her last moments, he still somehow believes that she is somewhere in the town, alive and waiting for him.

James is an extremely complex character, made evident by his self-contradictory statements and actions. The most obvious example would be him coming to Silent Hill even though he knows his wife is dead, as mentioned earlier. One plausible reason is that he is simply in denial, unable to bear the weight of his wife's death and therefore tries to cling on to any sliver of hope that he can find.

However, James' personality can differ wildly according to the player's actions and interpretations of his character. He varies from being a normal person with good intentions, to someone who is apathetic even to his own life. This idea might stem from James' original character concept: a man with two split personalities, "Joseph" and "James". Of course, there must be a common ground and backstory between his multiple personalities, and this is discovered gradually as one progresses through the game.

It is soon made clear that not all is right with James, as he and his wife had both suffered for three long years. James had been perservering for three years with the hope that Mary would be cured, yet with each passing day the realization that this was impossible hit him harder and harder. As such, Mary's passing has placed severe mental trauma on James; it would even seem as if he himself died that day as well.

James' mental condition is also effectively expressed through the town of Silent Hill itself. Due to the evil happenings that once cursed the town, it possesses a mysterious power over its visitors. It reflects the deepest darkest reaches of its victims' hearts, by way of gruesomely transformed surroundings and grotesque monsters. In James' case, it is an elaborate projection of his psychosis.

Each monster he encounters is the physical representation of one of his repressed thoughts, be it the refusal of his natural inclinations, his quiet internal suffering, or even his masochistic need to punish himself for not being able to save Mary.

In short, the town, its monsters, and his situation are all indicators of James' mental state and in a way act as extensions of himself, making Silent Hill 2 the epitome of character-driven narratives.

And I think I've digressed quite a lot from talking about characters in general... Oh, well.

Laugh

2008-05-13T12:25:00.002+08:00

Damn, I have no idea what I ate last night. My stomach's killing me. So I decided not to go to school today.

And to entertain myself while I was at home, I watched this:

Basically it's a game show where they have to refrain from laughing no matter how stupid the situation is. Whoever laughs gets hit. Really really hard.

Damn, I'd suck so much at this game.

Reverse/Rebirth

2008-05-10T22:48:00.002+08:00

I decided that after almost a year, I really needed to change my blogskin, so I decided to go with a Silent Hill one. It's not mine, but I think it looks cool. 'Cause it's got Heather ^___^ I'll get around to making my own eventually. Most probably featuring Heather as well.

God freaking dammit, I'm supposed to do that Train Man review.

Card

2008-05-02T22:22:00.003+08:00

I think it's absolutely intriguing that a simple arcade game like Silent Hill: The Arcade has thus far twice allowed me to meet two wildly different people. The first, of course, was none other than the kid, who in an obscurely indirect way, caused me to have an epiphany. The second was a meeting with a girl, whose name I had also failed to get, and therefore she shall be referred to as 'The Girl'.

It was yesterday when I went to the Popular Bookstore at Jubilee to pick up Densha Otoko, 'Train Man' by Nakano Hitori, a book which I have since finished reading, and will review in a later post.

Anyway, after I bought it I stopped by the arcade and decided to try playing it again after a week or two of hiatus. (due to the fact that me and Cleon kept playing Guilty Gear and King Of Fighters. Damn.)

I went through the first area nonchalantly when out of the blue, a girl who looked slightly older than me suddenly appeared beside me as if she were a Jumper and tapped her Tapz Card eagerly on the machine. It was kind of weird, and she was my second shooting partner whom I had never met before, not to mention the first not to ask for my permission beforehand. Nevertheless, it was always good to have company, so I didn't say anything.

Before long though, the two of us started chatting casually.

"So, how long have you been playing this?" She asked. I noticed that she was pretty good. Though she didn't have a wicked rate of fire like The Kid, she certainly had the accuracy to make up for it.

"A few times, I guess. Played it every week since it came out," I answered, just barely managing to prevent a really evil dog from taking a bite out of me.

"Really? So can I assume that you're a pro at this?"

"Haha, no way, nothing like that."

After that we just made small talk about the Silent Hill movie, Pyramid Head and D.Gray-Man. Eventually, we made it to the part where I had lost when I played with The Kid. With two people, we managed to clear it and went for a final showdown against the big bad guy with a giant pyramid on his head. She was really eager (and hilariously ovezealous) to finish the game as neither of us had done so before. Unfortunately, both of us died at around the same time, and both our Tapz Cards had run out of money.

We both went to top up our cards, and when we came back I watched her play with her little brother.

"Man," she said, "I'm so upset that I have to start the game all over again," reminding her brother again and again to reload.

"Yeah... Sorry about that..." I said softly, and I doubt she heard me cause she didn't say anything. At the first boss, the brother-sister duo was unfortunately defeated due to the boy's inexperience. After that they had to leave, and the girl whispered a quick, "Nice playing with you," before leaving hurriedly. I was dazed so a weak "Yeah..." was all I could manage.

After they left I took over for them, but after I downed the dragon I realized that The Girl had left her Silver Tapz Card on the machine, next to my own. Damn.

"Can someone take over for me?" I turned around and asked the guys who were watching me play. "I gotta go."

And I ran to catch up with The Girl to return her card. I had no idea where she was, so I spent a good hour or so going around Hub and eventually Central to find her, but with no luck. Dammit, I'm tired. And in the end I couldn't find her...

And so I went back to the arcade and told the guy at the counter, "Hey, someone dropped their card and I went to look for them, but I couldn't find them. Could you give them my contact details so they can contact me if they want to get it back?"

"Alright," he said, "name and number?" which I gave to him. And so I went home with the Silver Tapz Card in my wallet, wondering what I should do with it if The Girl never contacted me to claim it. Hmm... As of now, I still have it.

Days

2008-04-14T23:35:00.002+08:00

Can we go back? To the good old days...

When we were still in shorts, chasing each other with broomsticks.
When we called Rohit fat, apologized two seconds later, then called him fat again.
When we were able to laugh with him afterwards.
When we stayed awake during Campfire Night, telling idiotic stories until the teachers told us to go to sleep.
When maturity was only an option.
When doing well did not mean life or death, adoration or discrimination.
When I came to school early, saw a good friend of mine with a penchant for drawing, alone sleeping at his desk, and smiled.
When friends were still friends.
When we had seniors, people to look up to.
When we were forgiven for making mistakes.
When conversation only got as serious as "There's a Housefly behind you".
When fights did not last longer than one afternoon.
When everything was simple, and did not need to be analyzed or rationalized.
When the most serious argument I had was with a friend about font sizes for our Science presentation.
When I could go to and return from school with a smile on my face.
When there was a place where I truly belonged.
When I couldn't possibly have asked for more.
When I was happy.

Please... Can we go back to those days...?

I'd give anything...

Kid

2008-04-07T00:33:00.011+08:00

It was the sixth, maybe seventh week I had been here, 'here' referring to the arcade at Junction 8. It had become something of a habit for me to come here after madrasah, and forget about everything else, and just play.

I decided to play Silent Hill: The Arcade for the umpteenth time, nonchalantly taking aims at the Gumheads and Double Heads. I had barely gone tthrough the first area when a kid walked up beside me. He was eight, maybe nine. He asked eagerly, "Can I play with you?"

"Oh, sure," I answered without really thinking. Hm, I thought, watching him insert his tokens into the slot, Weird, first time anyone's asked to play with me. Besides, Saiful, that is. Wonder how good this kid is.

And we plowed through the first stage with little to no trouble. The dragon with a guillotine for a hand gave one final roar of pain and fell to the floor limply. I turned to the kid, and he smiled at me. Both of us had done well. But this didn't greatly surprise me, as countless practice had made the first stage quite easy.

ERIC: RANK B

TINA: RANK B

He got a B too, huh? Not bad... When we arrived at the second stage I became more cautious, as this was where I had met my maker so many times before. Calm down, it's no big deal... Just shoot the Insane Cancers in the head before they can get at you... Yeah... I looked at the top-left corner of the screen, then the top-right.

ERIC: 17 HP

TINA: 93 HP

Fortunately I was able to make it pretty far, picking up three Health Drinks on the way, and saving myself from imminent death. But all of a sudden, a giant worm burst through the gates. Big deal, I've done this before. He can't hurt me if I just keep shooting him. It's a free combo. And the two of us unleashed bullet after bullet right into the mouth of the creature, until it finally writhed and cried, wriggling right past us in a bid to escape.

That was easy, I smirked. Now let's see how we did.

ERIC: 13 COMBO

TINA: 18 COMBO

What the hell? I turned to the boy, who was watching the screen anxiously for the next wave of enemies. Quite a trigger finger on the kid. I couldn't help but smile. We were doing far better than I could've hoped. But the smile faded quickly as we approached the next area.

"Eric!" Cried a man in a cap some distance away. "I'm so glad you're here! Help m-" But before he could complete his sentence he gave a scream of terror as he was dragged back into the darkness by an unknown force. However, a towering, menacing figure soon emerged into the foreground: that of a giant, mechanical woman, back bent backwards on walking on all four limbs, like a four-legged spider. A timer in red appeared in the top center of the screen, counting down to oblivion.

George
7200

Iron Maiden... This is as far as me and Saiful got last time... I turned to the kid again. Will we be able to do it? The Iron Maiden lunged at us, and with a brief moment of observation, I realized that one unit on the timer translated to ten milliseconds. So we have 72 seconds... Is that even possible? I tried not to think about what would happen if we failed, and concentrated on killing the damn thing. The boy exctiedly shouted commands at me, some of which I accepted, some I didn't in favor of my own strategy. I didn't really think, just pulled the trigger over and over again and hoped for the best.

George
1480

The spider woman shrieked in agony, and broke into pieces. We did it. I flashed the kid a congratulatory smile, and looked eagerly at our results.

ERIC
HIT RATE: NO BONUS
DAMAGE: NO BONUS
RESCUE: NO BONUS

RANK B

TINA
HIT RATE: 051000
DAMAGE: NO BONUS
RESCUE: NO BONUS

RANK A

No way... Who is this kid? We were doing much better than I thought we would, and the boy was still on his first token. To my dismay, however, soon after we reached the third stage, the boy was downed by an acid-spewing Numb Body, and I was on my own as he watched me play. And then, all of a sudden, I had a life-changing experience. While playing a video game. And it was not a mere exaggeration.

It came unexpectedly, of course. There was a barrage of cutscenes, one after the other, with a flash of white bright light in between. And when I was back in the game, right in front of me was Pyramid Head. And for some reason, I felt extremely angry at him. After effectively deterring him from attacking me, there was another bright white flash, and he was gone. But before he did, I noticed that the entire game was now in sepia, as opposed to the bloody, rusty colors I had been so used to. Eric wandered the now empty hallway, but when he turned the corner, a group of Nurse Monsters greeted him. He/I dispatched them quickly, and there was another white flash. And Pyramid Head appeared again. This seemed to happen for quite a while, although Pyramid Head vanished after the second time to be replaced with other monsters. And somehow, as I went through all those monsters and listened to Eric shouting at them, taking out his frustrations on them, it struck me.

I was really into it now, literally. I single-mindedly took aim at each of them, those demons that were oh so symbolic of my own. Every Scraper a regret I couldn't change, every Screamer an annoying concept that was so inconveniently part and parcel of life. And with each downed monster, each flash of light, I felt it. An indescribeable feeling that one couldn't hope to comprehend at face value, but contributed to something that already existed within me, giving me insight into something I had been pondering for so long. The death of each creature gave birth to a new revelation, and I was stunned at its effects. This was... Of course. I was having an epiphany, there was no other word for it.

As I asked myself what this could mean, a Scraper saw its chance and lunged at me, slashing Eric to death and presenting me with a "CONTINUE? 9" and eventually a "GAME OVER" screen. Oh... It's over.

"Where are you going now?" The boy asked me innocuously as I picked up my bag.

"Um..." I answered, "I think I'm gonna go eat, then after that I'm gonna go home."

"Oh..." He said, his tone considerably less enthusiastic.

"Well, bye." I said casually, and turned around. But as soon as I did I didn't feel hungry anymore, and before I was more than five meters away from the arcade, I went back in.

I went to inspect the Guilty Gear machine, but it was broken for some reason, black tape over the coin slot. Damn. But walking around for a while, I saw the boy again.

"I thought you went home?" He asked eagerly.

"Yeah, well, I suppose I could hang around for a little while more." I answered. I probably didn't realize it then, but it was because of this boy that I had learned what I did today. He practically changed my life. I owed him a lot, so the least I could do was hang out with him for a little while.

"So," I asked, "who did you come here with?"

"My mother."

"Your mom? Where is she then?"

"I don't know."

"Seriously?"

"Don't worry, she'll come back here later."

And the two of us went around watching people play. I listened to his comments at the performance of other people. He was an average kid, really. But there was just something different about him somehow. Probably because of my enlightenment earlier.

But after a while, I decided I really needed to go home.

"Will you be alright here while you wait for your mom?" I asked suddenly.

"Why?" He replied.

"I have to go now," I told him, feigning casuality as much as I could.

"Are you really going home?" He asked disbelievingly.

"Yeah..." I turned around and started walking towards the exit. Hmph. Without even realizing it, a kid just taught me a valuable life lesson. Who would've thunk it. "Bye," I said with an air of finality, wacing at him without turning back.

Thanks, kid.

ラセン

2008-02-23T07:00:00.002+08:00

I once asked Mrs Goh (Mrs Trixie Goh, mind you) whether she had ever had days like this. To my surprise she said she had had them loads of times. Didn't expect that. So I asked her whether there was any explanation for such a day. Her reply was that it was a by-product of every single little disappointment or sorrow you had experienced over a certain period, eventually manifestting itself in concentrated form. Hmm. Fancy that. Thanks for the input, Mrs Goh.

Anyway, I figured that to take my mind off things I should go and work on my novel. So here I am writing about Sigma Gates and Gladii, and- Oh, shit, I'm not really writing anything. Dammit.

Hanatareta tsubasa ga negai wo makichirashite
Konoyo no hate otoshita inori no sora e to

Sono hitomi ni utsusu no wa kaketa tsuki no rasen
Nazoru yubi ga tadoritsuku basho wo sagashiteru
Dakiau tabi yojireru hada to binetsu wo
Musaboru you ni mata mune wo shimetsukeru

change the WorLd

2008-02-03T00:19:00.000+08:00

After some assessment, I decided that I really like this trailer. Why? Because I have always known L as an incredible, unreachable super genius of unmatched intellect. But the trailer has shown an interesting take on the character. It has shown that L, for all his weird quirks, for all his amazing intelligence, is still human, flawed and fallible. Even a prodigy such as him struggles with emotions like frustration and loneliness, which common folk deal with almost daily. As such, even though the trailer has shown a 'weaker' side of him, it has also made him much more real as a person, and that has made him even more impressive to me.

Also, Yiyin, despite clear explication, was severely confused as to where this movie fits into the Death Note timeline, which makes her a noobcakes.

Can one person really change the WorLd?

ブレブレブレブレ

2008-01-06T09:48:00.000+08:00

Wow. It's 2008. And as nobody has ever missed the opportunity to remind me, this is a critical year for us Sec Fours! But then again, Mrs Ong told me that last year was a critical year too, as was the one before that. I barely remember my Sec One life, so what the hell.

The first few days of school were okay. So far I haven't gotten a teacher that I am at all dissatisfied with (any new teachers, anyway) and I hope it'll shape up to be a good year! You know, besides O's and everything.

My first madrasah session is later. [sarcasm]I'm so excited.[/sarcasm] But my brother had it yesterday and he said it was alright. I hope so.

Hmm... A lot of thoughts have been running through my head these past few days, but of course I don't like to talk about them, let alone on a public domain such as this... Yeah.

I'll have to work real hard this year, and then after O's, I can relax! Here's to hoping I do well.

Overachievers scare me.

And before I go...

深夜俺はテレビを観ていた。
やることもないからボーッと観ていた。
ザッピング、成功者が誉められていた。
あの人は軸がぶれてない... 素敵。

You might not understand that, but that's okay. You don't have to.

Jufrande!

2007-12-15T21:37:00.000+08:00

What? You've never heard of Jufrande? (Pronounced with a 'you', by the way) Shame on you. It's the most awesome band on Earth! Okay, maybe not.

Jufrande (name tentative) is the brainchild of Daniel Soo Hong Kit, who, in the throes of boredom decided to form a band, and recruited several other hapless people (including me) to join him. Other names that were considered for the band were:-

- The Daniels
- Agrehjelev
- Danny and the Phantoms
- Drama Mamas (Danny suggested this =.=)
- The Panzers
- The Apaches
- Two Words For You
- Carmination
- Hi-5!
- Khairion (=.=''')
- The Ariels (=.="""""")

And of course, with such awesome names, the members themselves must be awesome! And awesome they most certainly are.

1. Danny - Keyboards/Piano
2. Carmina - Guitar
3. Khairi - Drums/Vocals (You know this is impossible, Danny =.=)
4. Prakash - Triangle. (Hahahaha.)

As of now we don't have a bassist. =.= Yeaaaah.

Quiz 2

2007-12-13T19:53:00.000+08:00

Quiz

2007-12-12T14:34:00.000+08:00

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR:

5. A complete collection of all the Silent Hill games (and all the consoles required)
4. Six points for my O' Levels!
3. Pie. Pie is good.
2. More time to do the things I like, and more money to do the things I like =.=
1. To lead a simpler life (though not so simple it's irritating.)

THE PERSON[s] WHO TAG-GED YOU IS

Carmina. Who was probably feeling very bored.

YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM / HER / THEM

Hmm...
1. She's uh... Smart? Very smart?
2. She has better eyesight than me... As do a lot of people =.=
3. She has this unsettling aura about her when she's at an arcade, like she's secretly pro in every game in existence and would trounce anyone foolish enough to challenge her... Like me.
4. She... Likes to read!
5. And... She likes Lord of the Rings.

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE / SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU

Beat me in Bishi Bashi? That was memorable, and slightly embarrassing.

THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE / SHE HAS EVER SAID TO YOU

Uh... "I win"?

IF HE / SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL

Hmm...

IF HE / SHE BECOMES YOUR ENEMY, THE REASON WILL BE

I said and/or did something extremely stupid.

PASS THE QUIZ TO 10 PEOPLE TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU:

1. Daniel Soo Hong Kit
2. Aliya
3. Alvin
4. Salmah
5. Sylvia
6. Carmina
7. Fadhil
8. Farah
9. Mrs Kamal (HAHAHAHA)
10. Anyone who wants to do this quiz...?

WHO IS NO. 7 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?
He knows, we know. Let's just leave it at that. Whoo.

WHO IS NO. 9 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?
Her husband...?

IF NO.9 AND NO.1 ARE TOGETHER, WILL IT BE A GOOD THING?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

WHAT ABOUT NO. 1 AND NO. 5?
Hmm... I can actually imagine that.... But wait! What will Cassandra say?

WHAT IS NO. 3 STUDYING?
Uh... Everything I am?

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CHATTED WITH NO. 6?
Now?

DOES NO. 4 WORK?
I don't think so...

DOES NO. 8 HAVE ANY COUSINS IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL?
Yes, Sofihah. Hahaha.

WILL YOU WOO NO. 8?
Height difference! No, I'm totally kidding. Don't kill me, Farah.

HOW ABOUT NO. 5?
Err... No, thank you.

DOES NO. 2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?
Nope. Not that I know of.

HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW NO.3 AND NO.4?
Alvin: It's kind of hard not to know someone in the same class as you for three years.
Salmah: Drama? And Malay!

WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE?
Admiralty... I think.

HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW NO.2?
Same class for two years, yo. And there's still ATC, yo. And O' Level Drama, yo.

IS NO.5 THE SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD?
No, even if she thinks she is.

(You don't have to do it if you don't want to, I just had to finish the quiz. Haha.)

Games

2007-12-11T22:21:00.000+08:00

Here is the list of games that I will never play in public again for fear of public humiliation:

- Bishi Bashi
- The House of the Dead 4 (unless somebody plays with me =.=)
- Time Crisis 4 (unless somebody better plays with me. Haha, sorry Danny.)
- Uh... Basketball?

Anyway, not too long ago I played Guilty Gear (it almost makes me cry when I think of Accent Core, which I don't have =.=) for the first time in ages. I forgot how totally awesome the game was, especially Chipp.

"Sushi! Teriyaki! BANZAI!" not to mention his patented catchphrases "HOLY ZEN!" and "CULTURE SHOCK!"

But that is besides the point. My point is that I never really noticed how some of the characters were outstanding in their own right, even more so than Sol, the supposed 'protagonist'. (Who cares about Sol, anyway? Honestly. His character seems the most flat to me.)

The best example I can think of is Venom. First off, Venom is English, and black. I mean, where in the world do you find a Black Englishman? Venom is the right-hand man of Zato-1, leader of the Assassins' Guild. At least, he was until Zato was tragically killed by Eddie, the parasitic entity which had taken over his body.

Even after his master's death, Venom protects his legacy, the Guild, with ferocious determination, even from extremely powerful foes like Chipp Zanuff, the last ninja on Earth, Slayer, the founder of the Guild and an invincible vampire, and especially Millia Rage, an ex-Assassin with a personal vendetta against Zato.

Whenever Venom encounters Eddie he lashes out at him for defiling his deceased's master's body, and swears vengeance against the parasite in Zato's name. Venom's dedication to Zato is simply staggering. In one ending of Guilty Gear X he lures Eddie into his own body, and sacrifices himself in order to kill Eddie and save Zato.
In another ending, from Guilty Gear XX, he is completely outraged when he discovers that Millia has already killed Eddie, and proceeds to kill her, pledging his life to Zato's memory.

And if you didn't get it with all that I've said, Venom is gay.

I'm not really sure why I'm saying all this here, but Venom's utter dedication to Zato is admirable, even against Slayer (who can never die =.=) and he is in my eyes one of the most developed and realistic characters in GG. (All Sol does is burn things and act like he's not enjoying it =.=)

Other good examples would be May's innocent love for Johnny, or Axl's determination to return to his girlfriend Megumi.

Buuut... Johnny is an womanizing bastard (to a certain extent) and I would probably need a long post like this to explain Axl's situation. So yeah.

And no, I'm not gay. Just because I find a gay man cool doesn't mean I'm gay =.=

誰

2007-12-10T23:47:00.000+08:00

Who the hell am I? Somebody tell me.

Gravity

2007-12-10T01:37:00.000+08:00

I think my brain fails in the face of seriousness. I swear I can even feel the brain juices floating around in my head, stagnant and inert. How some people "work best under pressure" and "not let the gravity of the situation faze them" I will never understand.

Time

2007-12-05T22:07:00.000+08:00

OSU~! The time of reckoning is almost at hand!

"There's nothing to it but to do it!"'

"You can do anything you put your mind to!"

"The sky's the limit!"

"Eddie, you can't just kill someone, 'cause of the way they looked at you!"

"Oh yeah? Why not?"

Also, in the end Pyramid Head kills itself, but attacking it will make it kill itself faster.

Atmosphere

2007-12-04T11:41:00.000+08:00

Somehow I get the feeling that I'm the only one who doesn't know what's going on. Not all of it anyway. Wouldn't be the first damn time.

Even worse, somehow I get the feeling that it will end worse than I imagined, explode right in my face. This is worse than the foghorn before Pyramid Head shows up. At least then, I know what's coming.

SORRY FARAH

2007-12-04T08:25:00.000+08:00

While I was looking through other people's blogs I realized something: while I thought that I had wished Farah 'happy birthday' I actually had not. Therefore I had actually managed to delude myself for an entire week.

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And happy birthday!

My mind's unraveling at the speed of light.

2007-12-03T05:41:00.000+08:00

I'm writing this post while waiting for some songs to finish uploading for use on my drama blog. Slow slow slow slow.

My mom signed me up for madrasah (egad!) at An-Na... An-Nad-what? That mosque at Bishan. Hope it'll be better than at Al-Muttaqin, although nothing could possibly be worse. Still, my Saturday afternoons are gone. Poof. Just like that.

Fear and uncertainty are both very interesting things, and they can be good or bad depending on the situation. For example, if James had not been afraid of Pyramid Head he wouldn't have had the idea (or common sense) to hide in the closet, and he would be instead chopped up into pieces by that big big knife. However, had Heather been uncertain and afraid of the going-ons around her, she would not have had the resolve to find her way home.

What does this have to do with anything? Absolutely nothing. Or does it? There's only one song to go.

Choices.

2007-11-29T18:57:00.001+08:00

The concept of 'choices' is probably the most intriguing, stressful, confusing, heartbreaking, indispensable, irritating aspect of life I have ever come across.

Firstly, one always feels strained when having to make a choice. Even one as simple as, "Should I eat nasi ayam or spaghetti?" or something like that. But the more difficult choices are the most irritating, like choosing a random answer for an A-Maths MCQ question that you just can't solve.

Some people say that choices are easier to make when you are aware of the consequences of each possible one. But what if all of the consequences are equally bad?

If someone gets hurt no matter what choice you make, really, what is the point of making a choice at all?

2007-10-28T16:30:00.000+08:00

Well, after six weeks of stress, knocking myself on the head, and re-evaluating my life, my L1R5 improved by 13 points, for which I'm very thankful because my results for Term 3 were simply abysmal.

But that's not even important right now. What's more important is that I'm leaving behind even more cherished memories. That's what sucks about living. The further you go the more things you have to forsake. Kind of like teaching your Pokemon new moves. Okay, bad analogy, I know. But what sucks even more is that as time passes the memories fade slowly into oblivion, no matter how much you want to hold on to them.

3/6 '07, all of you have been great, and though our academic achievements left much to be desired it was our disdain for compulsory education and self exertion that brought us together (literally.) Sadly, after all the good times we've had together some of us will have to part ways. It has been nice knowing all of you, truly. Another big change is on the horizon, and to those whom I will see less of next year, I wish you the best of luck in all your endeavors.

Maurice, despite your race being a minority here I have dedicated an entire paragraph to you, so be thankful. Hahaha. Being in the same class as an ang moh was quite an experience, I must say, and I have learned many an interesting thing from you. I admit, it was extremely difficult to speak with you at first, but over the past year the we shared a common bond as one class. I wish you a safe trip home and that you do not forget any of your fellow classmates. (Hell if you did, you have all our nametags.)

Can't really describe how I feel right now, such bittersweet sorrow these past few days has been, which is ironic given the fact that I was listening to a Janne Da Arc song called "I'm So Happy" just a while before writing this post.

Also, for some reason my blogskin looks really irksome to me now. Shall change it soon.

Notes near Body Parts in Belgium Linked to Death Note

2007-10-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

La Dernière Heure, a French daily newspaper in Belgium similar to United Kingdom's The Sun or America's New York Post, reports that two identical messages linked to the Death Note manga were left near severed body parts that were discovered Friday afternoon in the forest of Belgium's Duden Park. According to the newspaper, the two paper sheets both say "Watashi wa Kira dess," an apparent misspelling of the Japanese phrase "Watashi wa Kira desu," or "I am Kira (Killer)." This is a catchphrase from writer Tsugumi Ooba and artist Takeshi Obata's Death Note suspense manga series, in which a high school boy discovers a notebook which allows him to kill people by writing their names in it.

The lower abdomen and two thighs of an unknown Caucasian male were discovered by walkers in the park Friday at 5:30 p.m. local time, and police sources for the newspaper said that the body parts were left no more than six hours before the discovery. There was no clothing, personal effects, or identification besides the two paper sheets. The two paper sheets reportedly had the same message, but were written in two different colors with no apparent signs of aging. Duden Park is located on east side of the Senne River Valley.

Belgian police are requesting that anyone who saw suspicious behavior on Friday between 12:30 p.m. and 5:00 p.m. near or at the park to call the Belgian phone number 02/559.80.00.

-Anime News Network, 01/10/2007

Oh. My. God. I can't even start to think of all the possible implications this unfortunate event will have on society. This is just so creepy I can't even think of anything to say. I was pretty confident of it before this, what with military rule and global warming, but this incident only confirms it: this world is headed straight for hell.

2007-09-30T12:54:00.000+08:00

Hmm, I guess English and Social Studies weren't that bad. I figure it's much better to have to write a lot than not being able to write anything. Still, my hand was wracked with pain, and all around me I saw people trying to shake off the pain, which, IMO, is a really stupid thing to do, because it'll just waste your time and the pain is bound to come back. Anyway, I think I'm well on my way to Chemistry hell. God help me.

But on a happier note, I am eagerly anticipating the awesomeness that is Devil May Cry 4. How glorious it looks! Just take a look at the two trailers:

Devil May Cry 4 Summer 2007 Trailer

Tokyo Game Show 2007 Trailer

Now wasn't that just awesome? =D Especially the first one, it looks fit for a freaking movie! Now why can't 2008 just come quickly =.=''

Uzumaki

2007-08-23T23:10:00.001+08:00

The assessment's finally over, and to my relief we did better than I expected, despite having no sounds and light cues that were completely whacked. Oh well.

I recently finished reading Uzumaki, a psychological horror manga by Ito Junji.

When I first read about Uzumaki, the premise sounded very, very, retarded. You see, it is about the inhabitants of the town of Kurozu-cho, who are haunted, not by a vengful spirit, not even the ghost of an animal, but by a pattern: the spiral.

Indeed, reading this statement almost turned me off completely to the manga, but I decided to check it out anyway, because I was curious as to how Ito would be able to pull it off, and make spirals look scary. I was completely blown away by the level of success he achieved.

The protagonist, Kirie, is an average high school girl, whose boyfriend Shuichi is somewhat cold and withdrawn. He goes to school in the neighboring town, and by comparison, he can tell that there's something amiss about his hometown...

But things really start going wrong when Shuichi's father becomes obsessed with and starts collecting spiral-shaped objects from springs to snail shells, even skipping work just to stare at his spiral collection. Soon his obsession reaches a level beyond unhealthy, and that's when the manga starts pulling you in.

Reading Uzumaki is something like climbing down a spiral staircase when you suddenly lose your balance, and after that you tumble down at breakneck speed.

What I mean is, at first the spiral curse is purely psychological, as in the case of Shuichi's father. But soon, strange transformations in both the mental and physical sense start to occur, and Uzumaki changes from being a story about lethal obsession to a completely surreal head trip that is anything but ordinary. Before you know it, the curse has spread from Shuichi's father to the entire town, each person in ways much more absurd and unbelievable than the last.

It's interesting to see how Ito manages to make the spiral manifest itself in so many ways, from grass to centipedes to cremation smoke.

Coupled with the eventual insanity of the townsfolk, these visual attacks on the mind work very effectively. I actually lost my sense of direction a few times within the world of Uzumaki, due to all the surreal imagery.

Of course, in order for said imagery to work, the art has to be done with much attention to detail, which Ito has achieved significantly. God knows how long it took him to actually draw out Shuichi's father's spiral collection, with loving detail on every conch, spring and vase.

Another thing that makes Uzumaki so likable is that the characters are extremely real, especially Shuichi. Despite being a main character, he becomes partially insane after several ordeals, which reflects on his features as well, turning him from a good-looking, bespectacled boy, to a deathly thin, pale shell of a man with dark circles to rival L's and constantly mumbling to himself, "The spiral... The spiral..."

Overall, Uzumaki is a stunning piece of work, both visually and literally. It draws you in slowly from the beginning, and eventually you can't help being sucked into its center...

Dreams - HIGH and MIGHTY COLOR

2007-08-20T20:51:00.000+08:00

Romaji:

futari no te suitsuku you ni
hanarenai itsumo issho sa
kizuitara soba ni ita yo ne
uchiaketa koto mo nai mama

owaranai natsu doko made mo ikou yo daisuki da yo
kinou made mo ashita kara mo onaji hazu datta

yume ga sotto tsugete ita yo
tanoshii hodo owari sou de
fushigi da yo ne hanareta te ga ochite
maru de maigo mitai itsunomanika inai

katamuketa sunadokei ni wa
koboreteku futari no kioku
kasaneta te surinukeru you ni
ochite yuku oto mo nai mama

todokanai natsu yubikiri wa samishiku te wo furu kedo
kinou made mo ashita kara mo kimi wo sagashiteru

yume ga sotto tsugete ita yo
mujaki na hodo kowaresou de
fushigi da yo ne arigatou no kotoba ga
maru de saigo mitai itsunomanika inai

meguru kisetsu wo sakasama ni megutteta
itsuka mata aeru to
tada shinjiteta kodoku kara nigeru yori
mou owari ni shiyou

koi to chigau kaishaku demo
ai to chigau kankei demo
futari wa mou atarashii futari ni
nareru boku wa yuku yo supiido ni notte

dakara kitto kanashikunai
dakara kitto kimi wa nakanai
dakara kitto ano toki no futari ni
sayonara wo tsugete mo naitari shinai yo

English:
as if our hands are stuck together
it won't separate, we'll always be together
you were there when I noticed
even if we've never confessed to each other

let's go somewhere far in this endless summer, I love you
until yesterday and from tomorrow was supposed to be the same

the dream softly told us
the funner it is, the end seems near
isn't it weird how the separated hands drop
it's as if we're lost, you're suddenly gone

in the tilted hourglass
the memories of us fall
as if it's slipping through our overlapped hands
they fall without making any sound

the pinky promise from the distant summer waves sadly but
until yesterday and from tomorrow I'm searching for you

the dream softly told us
the more innocent it is, it seems more fragile
isn't it weird how that thank you
seems like the end, you're suddenly gone

we were going through the seasons in inverse order
thinking that we'll meet again someday
I simply believed that rather than running away from loneliness
it's better to just end it

even if it's a different interpretation from love
even if it's a different relationship than love
the two of us can become new
I'll go on on high speed

that's why I won't be sad
that's why you won't cry
that's why we won't cry
when we say good bye to the two of us from that time

The Update That is Completely Pointless Yet Absolutely Necessary

2007-08-14T23:21:00.000+08:00

Darn, I was supposed to rant about Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows but by the time I finished it was way too late for that. So I shall summarize my rant into one sentence. "It was overrated, I didn't like it that much." Sure J.K. Rowling is good with words and describing stuff and all that jazz, but I just didn't feel the quaint charm present in the first few books.

Moving on!

I feel like a zombie, for some reason. Must be too much Resident Evil. But each day I get the feeling that life is really, sadly futile, which is a rather emo thought that I try not to let into my brain. Still, I feel awfully empty nowadays, for some strange reason. You know your life is sad when the only things keeping you alive are video games, anime, and apple tea. But anyway...

I am starting to love O Level Drama, because for our assessment this term, Aliya, Sofihah, Jacq C, Prakash and me, have crafted a script that turned out to be a little piece of awesome! It would be totally great if we could use it for our O Level coursework. Great job everyone! You guys rock!

And finally, I would like to say a big sorry to everyone who has tagged my tagboard until now, because while I should be more appreciative that people are talking to me, I was too much a lazy idiot to even reply. So, I am VERY, VERY SORRY, EVERYONE.

Damn you, Potter.

2007-07-21T23:37:00.000+08:00

Today was the usual fare, Civil Service Club, tennis, squash, etc., etc.

But the more important thing is that I have yet to purchase the final Harry Potter book due to a mixture of pure laziness, and my general disdain for J.K. Rowling. I plan to buy it tomorrow, which I doubt I will be able to do because it will probably be sold out. Oh well. Until I finish the book, I will never log in to MSN because I know some idiot out there is going to prominently display a key spoiler in his/her nickname. Can you shut up please? What is the damn point anyway? Also, I will stay away from other people's blogs, especially those who are avid Potter fans. Not even mine. I will not even visit Wikipedia. Hell, I might not even use the Internet altogether.

Similarly, in the sad event that I am unable to complete the book by Monday, I will leave any and all conversations that have even the slightest chance of careening into the precarious, yet inevitable direction that is Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, such as:

"Have you bought the last book?" (Duh.)

"Did you watch Order of the Phoenix?"

"Do you know how to do the trigo worksheet?"

That's right, for as long as the book remains unfinished I shall transform myself into a social outcast and you all will hate me.

Aussie Week

2007-07-08T18:26:00.000+08:00

Ah, yes, in one of the most eventful weeks of this year, a group of students from Marryatville High School came to sunny little Singapore for our annual Drama Exchange Programme. I was happy to see several old friends again, and I also managed to form an "Aussie Shield" in the form of David and Ramsay. And boy, was it one tough shield. Not even Mrs Chong scolded me during Maths! Instead, she gave me "advice" in a really creepy voice, prompting David to say when she left, "Khairi's got a girlfriend, Khairi's got a girlfriend!" Ew. Never. Ever.

But, enough of that, let's break down the week.

Monday

It was the welcome party to well, welcome the Aussies. Duh. I didn't realize that we had to wear our ethnic costumes so I showed up in ATC attire. Who wears ethnic costumes to a party anyway? So racist.

Tuesday

And it was today that I took on the heavy responsibility of carrying Prakash's chair to the stage. Lol. Hey, it's harder than it looks, okay. Shut up.

Wednesday

Today was the big day, the performance! Well, as big as "carry a chair to the front of the stage, then wait backstage until the scene finishes then take the chair back" can get. But oh well, I told myself, at least I would still have the support of my wonderful seniors!

So at the reception before the show I met up with Prasaanth and Ashwin and told them to get everyone they could to cheer for me when I went out to put the chair on stage, even though it would disrupt the play as utter silence was needed for the play. So when I went backstage as the play started and told Monica about it, she warned me that it was a bad idea.

"Oh." That could be a problem, I thought. But lo and behold, when I went to put the chair on stage, there was nothing! Dead silence! Not even two fingers clapping. What the hell was this?! My self-confidence was drained considerably and I almost messed up placing the damn chair.

So after the play, I demanded an explanation for the lack of applause. They was saying stuff about how they weren't worthy and how I was "the bomb" at moving the chair. Kind of funny actually. Receiving compliments for moving a chair.
Still, it was the second best day out of the entire week, surpassed only by the next.

Thursday

Me, Jacq, and our Aussie Shields (It's fun calling them that, though I feel kind of bad xD) David, The Guy With the PacMan Belt (A PacMan BELT! How cool is THAT?), Flick, The Girl Who Discovered That Ideas Are Like Chickens, and Ramsay, The One who Ran Away Frequently, hung out in the library until lunch, during which I had an extremely enjoyable gathering with my dear seniors, laughing at jokes similar to the ones we used to make in happier times.

My God, I miss those days. Where every week we would all gather and talk about stupid things and laugh until we had no more energy for rehearsals. Where we could abuse Soma as our own personal laughing stock without him realizing it. Where there were absolutely no worries about homework or life. Where I didn't have to move from one mental and emotional irritant to another. Where I truly felt at home.

God knows how I'm going to survive Sec 4... Oh my God, help me.

Anyway, after a heartfelt goodbye for some and hundreds of pictures all around, we headed for VivoCity. The Aussies were mighty excited about watching Transformers, and so was I. I wasn't really interested at first, as I was never a fan of Transformers, but after seeing positive reviews popping up all over the place, I decided I had to give it a shot. And boy, am I glad I did.

Much credit is due to the amazing SFX team responsible for creating the most realistic transforming robots I have ever seen in my life. I actually entertained the thought of barging into DreamWorks Studios and shouting, "Alright! Where are the Autobots?!"

Major kudos also to Michael Bay, Steven Spielberg and the other geniuses behind the amazing action sequences, which coupled with the amazing special effects, definitely left me breathless. Do yourself a favor, watch the movie.

After the movie, we went to watch Dim Sum Dollies. I thought it was okay, but it must've been torturous for the Aussies. I mean, like half of it was in Hokkien and the other half consisted almost entirely of political jokes, so I guess it wasn't a very good choice of play with regard to the Marryatvillians. Sorry guys. =/

Friday

The day everyone feared, the day the Aussies had to leave, Homestay buddies were hugging each other, Jonny fangirls were weeping in grief, and once again, hundreds of camera flashes burned images into my retina. I was sad of course, given that I would never see these people ever again, save for some intricate twist of fate. Furthermore, my Aussie Shield had dissipated, and I would have to brace myself for the beatdowns that would come my way on Monday. But at that time all that mattered was taking as many pictures as possible and waving goodbye.

After we left the airport, nobody felt like going to school, so Mrs K in her prudence gave us a debrief that took up the entire first period. Thanks, Mrs K.

Conclusion

So, yeah, it's been a great week overall, if not for a few missteps here and there. And yesterday I realized that I missed Abingdon Boys School and Rip Slyme on Live Earth! Damn it! It would've been even cooler if Janne Da Arc were there, though. I wouldn't miss it for the world. But I digress. Later.

This Week In Review! (Alternatively "Why is This Blog Still Alive?")

2007-07-01T20:17:00.000+08:00

Well, this week could've been better. What made it not good was Speech Day, for which we performed the abridged (pronounced "butchered") version of "Fatal Addictions", our SYF piece. I really wasn't in the mood to do it since I wasn't allowed to say a vast majority of my lines. I couldn't even say "bleed" or "ass". WTF. And one of the teachers (I forgot who, but it wasn't Ashari) said something like, "I don't know how you got away with it last time" and "Maybe after hearing it so many times you've become desensitized to it" and crap like that. Please. Get the **** off your damn pedestal. (I'm trying not to curse so much) If my performance was horrible, please forgive me, it was hard to perform such a lame and disgusting script.

Probably the only saving grace after the abomination that was Anderson Secondary School's 37th Annual Speech Day, is that I didn't have any tuition today. However, it was kind of boring, without more of my tutor Mr Wong's utter nonsense.

So I slept into the afternoon, and spent the rest of it listening to Janne Da Arc songs. (which I'm still doing now.) Gotta love the guys. They're pure genius. If you don't believe me, go to iMeem or something and listen to "DOLLS", "ROMANCE", or "Kiss Me". Ja ne.

Dude, where're my holidays?

2007-06-20T14:02:00.001+08:00

Why are the holidays gone? They barely even started! Man, this sucks. If I get this kind of feeling at the end of the year I'm gonna kill myself. And I've barely started on my homework. "Barely" implying that I have done some *semblance* of homework. These few weeks were kind of mundane, though. Wake up, bathe, watch anime, eat, play DMC3 (which I accidentally uninstalled from my computer in a fit of stupidity. No! My saved games! T_T) eat again, watch more anime, play DMC3 again, watch JIGOKU SHOUJO, go to sleep. However on Sundays, Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays I begrudgingly headed for tuition in the afternoon, and for Sunday, in the morning too =.=

Of course, I didn't go through the three weeks without learning anything. So here's what I learned:

What I Learned Over The Holidays
1. Michael Jackson should be in jail.
2. The ghosts in Silent Hill 4 suck, because you can beat the living shit out of them with a Steel Pipe, but they'll just get back up again and kill you =.=
3. HOERO, ZABIMARU!
4. I can't gather the willpower to watch Witch Hunter Robin =.='''
5. I'm practically talking to myself.
6. I have tuition in 15 minutes!
7. *rolls eyes*
8. MY EYES! MY EYES!
9. I like pie.
10. Michael Jackson should be in jail.

It's time for another Random Survey!

2007-06-17T15:52:00.000+08:00

What are you doing right now?

Um... Taking this survey?

What would you rather be doing?

Many things. Like play Fatal Frame II. Or eat pie.

If you could be anyone else for a day- who would it be?

HEI!

What's your favorite band right now?

Janne da Arc. Though Abingdon Boys School is good too.

Your favorite TV show?

Anime doesn't count, right? Heroes, then.

Whats the most number of people you've ever had in your car?

48, including me. (Hehehehe.) Though it's not my car =.=

How many people do you know named Dave?

What the hell?

Would you rather lose an arm or a leg?

An arm, specifically my left.

What's your favorite feature about you?

My fondness for pie.

What did you have for dinner last night?

Curry chicken. I think.

What does the background on your computer look like?

It's "Bliss", one of the default ones that comes with Windows XP. you know, the one with the grass and the clouds xD I was too lazy to change it. And it looks nice, okay. Shut up.

Do you make your bed in the mornings?

There's not much to make, so...

Describe your boss in one word.

Non-existential...?

Describe your best friend in one word.

INSANE.

Did you make it this far through my survey?

I'm answering this question, aren't I?

Are you insane?

Yes.

Don't you have anything better to do?

Shut up and die.

Do you think Michael Jackson should be in prison right now?

HELL YES, BIATCH.

Do you prefer to be on top or under?

Get away from me, sicko.

What mood are you in today?

I was feeling fine and dandy, then I started doing this survey.

Do you think this survey thing sucks?

HELL YES, BIATCH.

I hereby declare this week Nostalgia Week.

2007-06-09T16:04:00.000+08:00

That's right, folks, the 2nd - 9th of June shall henceforth be known as Nostalgia Week.

Lately, every damn thing, no matter how small, has forced to me to reminisce and look back on the good old days, or in some cases, just the old days. Be it anime that I watched a long time ago but lacked the maturity to properly enjoy, video games that I did not manage to beat because I was too stupid, or TV shows that I didn't finish watching. Even food made me think of the past. FOOD, dammit. And my lack of MP3 or phone reminds me of how my computer got virus'd and I lost every damn song I ever had. Which reminds me of how in the past radio was actually enjoyable to listen to. Old friends who are no longer here, stupid things that I wished I could do again, and my appetite which has shrunk considerably. Damn.

Also, I got out of the shower today to find the rice cooker in front of the printer. Deep.

Dumdumdum...

2007-05-26T08:32:00.000+08:00

One day (yesterday actually) I realized that I sort of missed making blogskins. Furthermore, I couldn't let Fadhil get away with making more and more skins than me. Crazy bastaaaaaard. Besides, I couldn't sleep with my brother's explosive snoring, so I stayed up and worked on this.

"Lex Aeterna", featuring, from left to right, Ryuk, Light, L, Misa, and Rem. I initially wanted to make a button-style blog like my other ones, but I decided against it in the end, which explains the little trick when you move your mouse over the characters. Hey, it still looks cool! Oh, and this skin is best viewed with Internet Explorer at 1280x1024.

Since I took all night to work on this I'm too tired to blog about much else, so I might after the theatre trip today.

Because no normal person will not blog about SYF.

2007-04-16T20:58:00.000+08:00

Before I knew it, the day came, even though it was freaking hard for me to sleep the night before. I went insane the day before, went to Giant with my folks and bought every variety of instant noodle I could see. And my dad asked me to get more! I actually laughed like an idiot as I grabbed the packets. But enough about that...

SYF DAY!

I expected the day to go well, as for breakfast I had Frosties for the first time in three years.

While waiting for everything to be ready, me, Danny and Prakash played InkBall on Mrs K's laptop. Hahaha. That game is amusing, okay. And, finally, the bus came.

We ran lines in the bus, and it was kind of scary sitting next to Prasaanth and his explosive voice. But somehow I was not in the proper SYF state of mind, even as we climbed up the stairs toward the auditorium.

But when we were backstage waiting to go on while the props were being set up, Prasaanth said to me, "Okay, Khairi. This is the last time I'm going to work with you. So make it count." And that was it. It didn't dawn on me until then that I wouldn't be able to see my seniors at Drama after this. So I decided to give it my all. I tried to make this the best damn thing ever. And in the middle of the thing, Soma, the slowest-ass virus in the world, took next to forever to strap the... strap onto my wrists. Sure, my wrists were a bit too big for the straps, but he could do it just fine before we went on. So there I was, standing like an idiot waiting for Soma to finish his job. Well, at least he didn't say, "Your wrists are too big lah, bastard" like he did every other time.

My hat goes off to Prasaanth, who managed to act perfectly despite the constant searing pain in his leg. Seriously, the things he does for ATC.

When we came back Mrs K talked about the seniors and how a chapter of ATC history has closed and stuff like that...

And when we were dismissed there were handshakes and hugs all around, and I realized that I hadn't been appreciating my seniors. When I was in Sec 1 I envied Band quite a bit, because they were so united, and I thought that maybe I too should have joined Band, but then today I realized that I have a good thing going on in ATC.
I'm seriously going to miss each and every one of you. Watching you guys perform in the SYF two years ago, messing around in Adelaide and playing broken telephone and performing Am I, and the CCA Open House are fond memories that will forever remain in my heart. Never again will I be able to walk into the MPS or Inspire Town and join Ashwin and Prasaanth in laughing at Soma, or be freaked out/amazed by Taufiq, Halim and Suffian doing weird, yet cool stuff, or manipulate Gaya's fear of ducks, or listen to Nithiya shout, "Everybody, can you all gather here?". Sure, we'll still see each other around in school during recess, but it won't be the same. The Reggae Rangers have broken up. So while I can, I would like to thank all of you for the two most interesting years of my life.

Thank you.

And for the record, you guys aren't seniors. You're family.

2007-04-09T22:31:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry I haven't been paying much attention... I seriously don't know what's wrong with me... I'm just being stupid.

If...

2007-04-07T22:54:00.000+08:00

I would like to congratulate anyone who has been able to fully comprehend my last post. Cheers.

In Other NewS....

2007-04-07T19:56:00.000+08:00

JB.

Cherish Gift Shop.

Johnny's Restaurant.

Today's NewS.

Sci-Fi Harry.

Shiki > Nanaya.

Pink Chicken = Barney.

Go to sleep.

It consists of...

2007-03-14T21:08:00.000+08:00

The eight most beautiful letters. (Okay, it's actually seven, one letter is repeated.)
The three most beautiful words.
The single most beautiful meaning.

Have you ever had one of those days?

2007-03-14T14:42:00.000+08:00

Have you ever had one of those days, where you suddenly gain a great deal of insight, and somehow your mind is able to grasp almost mystic knowledge about the value of life, the inner workings of society, and why the toast always lands butter side down? No? Me neither =/

What I did have was one of those days where I was in such an amazingly good mood nothing could go wrong, and even if it did, I'd be too happy to care.

Cora... Melvin... Black... Train... Popcorn... Leaf... White... Fabric... Potato... Soup... Pie... Rarr.

Ahahaha.

2007-03-14T00:37:00.000+08:00

Haven't blogged in a while, hm... Anyway, here is my new blogskin, "Dead Silence" featuring Nanaya Shiki of Tsukihime. Now that I've just finished it, I don't have enough time to blog. Damn. I'll do it tomorrow.

2007-03-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

The annual cross-country was today. Strange, it seemed much shorter than 2.4, for some strange reason... Anyway, we were released an hour early, so me and Fadhil decided to go watch the new Jack Neo movie, Just Follow Law. Man, was it hilarious. I would give a detailed review but I'm way too hungry. Just go watch it, dammit.

I'm really, really sorry if my words don't help you, even more if they hurt you. I'm really not good with words and it's very hard for me to place what I feel into sentences, so please forgive me. And sometimes I'm so shy I feel like kicking myself, so forgive me if it seems like I'm not doing anything. I want you to know that I truly, sincerely care about you.

TENNIS!

2007-02-24T21:18:00.000+08:00

Went to the Civil Service Club again to play tennis. Actually I wasn't in the mood for it at first, and intended to retreat in search of chocolate and mango tea the moment we reached the courts. In the end, I decided to psyche myself up the best way possible: MUSIC! Ahh, yes, Zetsubou Billy does wonders. Indeed, it was not long before I was swinging my racquet around wildly and singing about Kira, dancin' bloody hearts, and crimson-colored songs of destruction.

My brother Afiq was being irritating, shooting his mouth off about how good he was, and ended up losing to my sister. Unhappy, he challenged me instead. His serves were a lot more unpredictable what with his anger and craziness, and I wasn't so sure I could beat him.

So I listened to Zetsubou Billy again, and convinced that I was in "Kira Mode" managed to beat him. Hahaha.

Kids are evil!

Port Dickson is HELL!

2007-02-19T19:33:00.000+08:00

The trip was so messed up I think my brain is going to explode.

Day 1

We didn't leave in a good mood. But that was expected. We never leave in a good mood because a problem will always surface at the very last minute. But that's not really important. I missed you even before I left, which was quite irrational, because I wouldn't be able to see you even if I stayed anyway. So to make myself feel better I had some of your pie for breakfast.

I kept thinking about you in the car until I eventually fell asleep, and I wanted to message you when I arrived only to come upon the horrifying discovery: NO NETWORK COVERAGE. I could feel the imaginary twig in my mind snap. How? How could I possibly deal with the idea of not being able to talk to you for three whole days? I shivered. It felt so much like cold turkey.

And to make it worse, the place looked really bad. I couldn't figure out how to open our room door from the inside and I had to call for Afiq every time I wanted to go out. But luckily we didn't die of boredom because we brought our Xbox and spent the time until lunch (which was like, five minutes?) playing Halo.

While we were eating our lunch, Nabeel told me, "This is a one-star hotel." It figured. Along with the confusing doors and the faulty wiring, the air-conditioner broke, and we had to eat in the stuffy heat.

When we came back, we played more Halo, and suddenly, something that I would never expect to happen in a hotel happened: there was a power outage. So I was stuck in a crappy hotel, the power went out, and I was 300 km away from you, without any means of contacting you. It just couldn't get any worse.

The power finally came back, and we played Fifa until we were dragged to the KTV lounge by our sisters. I really wasn't in the mood to sing so me and Nabeel went to the bar. And there was this group performing, they were sort of creepy, what with the tube tops and cowboy hats and short skirts, it was pretty disturbing... Yeah. So we decided to play pool (I lost badly, obviously) and went back to the room, where Afiq and Nabeel played some more Fifa and I was left to think about you. It was killing me, you in my head and not being able to do anything about it, so I decided to take my mind off things by listening to some music. But listening to songs like Love Again and Kimi Ni Fureru Dake De (Just Touched By You) obviously didn't help, so I decided to listen to something totally irrelevant, Nightmare's Alumina. But that didn't do much either, because Alumina ends with, well, 'mina'. But I really wasn't in the mood to play word association, so I grabbed the controller from Afiq and played until I fell asleep.

Day 2

Woke up, and before I did anything else, I played more Fifa with Nabeel. It was then that we realized that strange things were happening within the game, like a goal kick sending the ball flying straight up, or the ball magically passing through the keeper's arm into the goal. Totally weird. After I took a shower we went down for breakfast, and I was annoyed with the numerous flies that were flying around. I didn't eat the watermelon for fear of maggots.

After that, back to the room, even more Fifa. I didn't really get the point of coming, I would rather have stayed home to play my Xbox.

We played tennis after lunch, and I did much better than I did two weeks ago. Maybe it was because I was more confident in my feelings for you, or maybe it was because I wasn't hungry and there were no baggy pants or long-sleeved shirts getting in my way.

When we got back, guess what? More Fifa. This time, we played until Nabeel fell asleep. I really couldn't wait until the next day, when I would finally be able to go home.

Day 3

Today was my birthday, but I didn't really care. All I wanted was to go home and be able to talk to you again, even though I'm thoroughly sick and tired of that stupid "All I want for (insert special occasion where presents are given here) is you" line.

As we inched closer towards Singapore, I was beside myself with anticipation. But JUST we got into range of the SingTel network, my phone died. Wonderful. I felt like watching birds or something. So I decided to occupy myself by referring to anything and everything with 'reggae'.

And now I'm finally back. I can talk to you again.

My Life Playlist

2007-02-16T21:59:00.000+08:00

I was bored, so I decided to do this. Like the title says, it's what my life would be like as a playlist. However, I'm not allowed to choose the songs, I can only play them on shuffle and list them down as they show up. Essentially, it's a more fun version of Miss Sharmilah's project. Some of my songs got mixed up with my sister's, and I didn't bother to sort them out.

To cheer myself up I: To My Friends - Rain (Huh?)
The story of my life is: With U - Rain (That would be awesome...)
Somewhere in my wedding vows, I will include: Numb - Linkin Park (Hm... That would be hard...)
My ultimate song for dancing is: Wake Me Up When September Ends - Green Day (OH, SURE.)
This song describes my grandparents: My Last Breath - Evanescence (HOLY SHIT NO)
Will I ever have kids? Digital Love - Daft Punk (Like there's a song called "Yes" or "No" =.='')
My innermost desire is: Karinui (Basting) - Mamiko Noto (My innermost desire is to tack pieces of garment together. Wonderful.)
At my funeral they'll play: It's gonna rain! - Bonnie Pink (Well, at least it's better than Love Love Shine...)
Right now, I feel: Beat Hit! - Miyazaki Ayumi (Uh... That doesn't make sense...)
Happiness is: Invincible - Jesse McCartney (Happiness IS invincible!)
What I did last night was: I'm Coming (Home-Grown Version) - Rain feat. Tablo (This could not sound any more wrong...)
If I got lost on a desert island, I would yell: FIRE!! - Wada Kouji (Doing this 'survey' really makes me laugh.)
At my wedding they'll play: How to Save a Life - The Fray (Mm... Kay...)
My family is described by the song: Koi No Mikuru Densetsu (The Mikuru Legend of Love) - Goto Yuuko (NO. GAWD, NO.)
I'll have a good day if I can just hear: It's Only the Fairy Tale - Miyamura Yuuko (Not really... Listening to it makes me emo...)
My friends see me as: Duran Shoukan - Kajiura Yuki (I can't even SPEAK Latin...)
When I'm drunk I say: U Know - Audition (Uh... What?)
My make-out song is: I Hate Everything About You - Three Days Grace (WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING TO ME?!)
My message to the world has always been: Southern Cross - 403 (I don't know...)
This song will be playing when I meet the love of my life: Breaking the Habit - Linkin Park (WHAT habit?!)
Behind my back, my friends think I'm: The WORLD - Nightmare (I'm the world to you guys? Awww...)
My day will be like: Uh-Oh - 1TYM (I don't like the sound of that.)
If I reached the top of Mount Everest, what I would scream: Northern Lights - 403 (NORTHERN LIGHTS!! NORTHERN LIGHTS!!)
My birth was like: sakasama no chou (Inverted Butterfly) - SNoW (Um... Yeah...)
My alter-ego is: Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance (My alter-ego is far from his last words...)

Chinese New Year not so far..! Bla bla bla...

2007-02-16T20:55:00.000+08:00

Today I brought ethnic costumes for 40382753 people, yet only like three came to get them. Damn. I wore white. I love white. I think I love white more than black now. Alvin was being picky about what costume he wanted, so I gave him a purple one. (HAHAHAHAHA) Other than the concert and only a half-day of lessons, it was pretty much an ordinary day.

You looked really cute =D

I was called back to go for ATC at the very last minute, and when I came I didn't even do much at all. All I did was endure the DAMN Para Para Sakura video that Miss Lee made us watch, talk to Prasaanth, and ask random people to go watch birds, and, just as randomly, say, "Massugu itte, hidari!" (Japanese for 'go straight and turn left')

I'm truly, really sorry. I really wanted to see you... Things like this happening make me question coincidence and fate. Maybe it was a coincidence that my handphone died before I got your message. Or maybe the higher-ups were playing 'cruel irony' with me. Whatever it was, it stopped me from being able to see you. Which I wanted more than anything at that point. Seeing your smile gives me comfort, it assures me that everything's alright.

I miss you already...

Valentine's Day passed and I didn't blog about it?! Damn!

2007-02-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

Valentine's Day was by no means an ordinary day. The class was in high spirits by the time I arrived, and it was great seeing everyone so happy, and the amount of chocolates everywhere. Hearing Mrs Chong's thoughts on the concept of Valentine's Day was also quite funny.
I didn't get a lot of stuff, and by comparing the stuff on our tables it was not hard to see that Alvin was more popular than me, but that I didn't worry about that. It doesn't matter how much stuff you get, but who you get it from =D

I sincerely apologize for not being able to thank everyone who gave me stuff, because I usually eat first and ask questions later. But your gifts are really appreciated.

Thank you for the pie. It's absolutely delicious.

Most Random Survey You Will Ever Take

2007-02-11T12:20:00.000+08:00

1. If you were going to a costume party tonight, what would you be? HASEO!!
2. What is one quality that you really appreciate in a person? Sensibility, to balance out my idiocy.
3. What would you rather have, a nanny, a housekeeper, a cook, or a chauffeur? A cook! I mean, think about all that pie!
4. You are offered an envelope that you know contains $50. You are then told that you may either keep it or exchange it for another envelope that may contain $500 or may be empty. Do you keep the first envelope, or do you take your chances with the second? I'd take the second one, realize it's empty and then hit myself on the head with a tuna.
5. If you had to have the same topping on your vanilla ice cream for the rest of your life, what topping would you choose? Nuts. Nuts are like rice. They're so plain, you'll never get tired of them.
6. Rock, paper, or scissors? Rock, yo.
7. What's your wallpaper on your cellphone? Ky and Sol. Hahaha.
8. If you could only use one form of transportation for the rest of your life, what would it be? Hm... A helicopter?
9. Last movie you watched? I watched The Exorcism of Emily Rose this morning...
10. Whats the first word that comes to mind right now? Uh... Focus...
11. Whats one thing you would change about yourself? I don't know... I'm happy with who I am... I'd like to be a little richer, though.
12. What color are your sheets? Blue.
13. Whats is your favorite flavor of Kool-aid? I never drank Kool-aid before...
14. What if nobody buys a ticket to a movie, do they still show it? A movie nobody's watching? Sad...
15. If you could be invisible for a day, what would you do? *cough* *cough* Wouldn't you like to know...
16. What size ring do you wear? I don't wear a ring...?
17. What was your elementary school's mascot? It didn't have one.
18. What's your favorite Starbucks drink? Coffee. Hahahahaha.

AAAAAAAABACUS!!

2007-02-08T20:38:00.000+08:00

Alvin came over after English (during which he played the Kao Pei Rap =.=;), and he played Rakion, while I played Guilty Gear. Upset after being beaten senseless by Gold Justice many many times, I hatched a plan.

Khairi: Alvin, play Guilty Gear with me. I need to feel better about myself.
Alvin: Um... How do you play?
Khairi: Hehe... Ehehehehe... Ehehehehe!

Match 1

Alvin: Ah, damn.
Khairi: AHAHAHAHAHA!

Match 2

Alvin: . . .
Khairi: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Match 3

Alvin: . . .
Khairi: MORE! MORE!

Match 4

Khairi: HEY WTF?!
Alvin: Yes!!

Match 5

Khairi: Baaaaaaaaasket.
Alvin: Ahahaha!

Match 6

Alvin: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Khairi: BASKET!

Yeah, you get the general idea. Even though I managed to make a comeback, Alvin proceeded to beat me twice more. Alvin, who has had no prior experience in Guilty Gear ever before. Beat me, who had been playing the game for months. That upsets me. Anyway, after that I didn't want to play with him anymore, so I decided to play by myself and Alvin played Rakion and not much later complained about my computer's tendency to restart on its own. And just twenty minutes ago he gave up and decided to go home. Hahaha! Not much else happened, kind of a routine day.

=)

2007-02-06T18:46:00.000+08:00

You make me smile.

How ironic.

2007-02-05T17:02:00.000+08:00

Today during Lit, we watched a film adaptation of Romeo and Juliet, of all things. We could have continued watching O, but nooo... I didn't like it much, because I found their romance very surreal, a classic example of "This obviously doesn't happen in real life." That, and the fact that Alvin couldn't stop commenting on Juliet's boobs, and he was telling the movie to hurry up and get to the part where they had sex =.=;;

Then later during Maths, Mrs Chong was saying something about BGRs and how they're bad for our health... Or something like that. Hm.

I'm sorry I said those things without thinking. I really try not to say things I don't mean, but I tend to make decisions on impulse, and sometimes I regret them immediately after. I promise I'll think carefully before saying something next time.

And by the way, I'm really happy you called, that's for sure.

I...

2007-02-04T20:03:00.000+08:00

You're right. I can't say that I'll wait for you no matter how long it takes, after only one weekend. I don't want to make empty promises that I'm not even sure I'll be able to keep. Most people might comment that me saying that I want to spend my life with you and only you was a stupid thing to do, because I might meet someone 'better', whatever that means. I doubt that though. I have never felt this way before, when my heart felt like it was going 200bpm but it wasn't, in fact it was beating quite slowly, or when my temperature started soaring and my stomach felt like ice at the slightest mention of your name. Once again, I can't say that this feeling will last forever, but as long as it does...

I'm trying to be sensible, but I just can't think clearly. All that's on my mind is you.

"I can't really help you because I've never been in a situation like this." Hm. I sort of miss being able to say that.

Tired.

2007-02-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

Went to the Civil Service Club today, like I do every Saturday. Nabeel wanted to play a serious game of bowling, and I tried my best to do just that, but I couldn't concentrate because my head was filled with thoughts of you. In the end, the best I could manage was one spare, and I was last in both games we played, even losing to Afiq.

I didn't fare well in tennis either. I really couldn't focus on the game, and again, I lost to both Nabeel and Afiq. Probably had something to do with my baggy pants, the big shoes, and the long sleeves. The sleeves are so irritating! How in the world does L do it? Not to mention the jeans. Sheesh.

After that we went for dinner, but I had absolutely no appetite. That, and the fact that for some weird reason I started feeling really cold. And still I decided to be smart and drink some ice-cold bandung. Yeah.

After that my parents wanted to go to Mustafa Centre, for another weird reason. And then, one after the other, I started hearing strange love songs on the radio. Heh, it's funny, it happened now of all times.

"Buy her roses just because..."
"If it's violins she likes, learn how to play it." Or SOMETHING like that, I don't know.
"I love you, and hope you love me..."
"I'm an alien, I'm a legal alien..." Okay, so this one doesn't fit. Whatever.

Now I'm pretty much sure that I really really like you, but I'm still going to wait for the fourteenth.

Confused...

2007-02-03T11:05:00.000+08:00

It's kind of funny, I can't remember the day we met, because it feels like I've known you forever. I don't really know why, but everything's changing, real fast. And even though it feels really weird sometimes, I... like it...? I don't know what I'm saying anymore... But that's okay, I guess. One side of me wants everything to go back to normal, while the other wants it to stay like this...

When I was a kid, I never expected myself to grow up to become this sentimental, and I've always wondered why I wrote stories like Nate and Emily's... I guess I always wanted something like that to happen to me. Yeah, I'm totally weird.

I think about you a lot these past few days... Not even playing Guilty Gear can get you out of my head, but I don't mind that at all.

I guess I'm really indecisive about what I want right now, whether I want us to be just friends or something more, but by Valentine's Day, I'll be sure. I promise.

'Til then, just in case you were wondering, I got you a rose.

Survivor Singapore

2007-01-31T21:09:00.000+08:00

This play is pure genius. It's about a group of students who are supposed to do a project that makes them 'think outside the box'. Instead of doing a boring old PowerPoint presentation, they decide to do something different. They decide to do something that will make them value life and not take the things they have for granted. They decide on Survivor Singapore. However, this sparks some controversy and quickly escalates into a serious matter. The principal decides to hold an inquiry, questioning what they were thinking and what their teacher was thinking for allowing them to do it.

I thought it impossible that something so funny could be so meaningful, but this is truly a hilarious, yet deep play, and Kumar being in it made it all the more awesome. I thoroughly enjoyed myself throughout the entire play, and I would definitely want to watch it again. I don't really have time to elaborate, because Heroes is on.

Rating: 4.75/5

SOAPBOX

2007-01-30T21:39:00.000+08:00

Well, I didn't win. Not that I wasn't expecting it, but still, despite me saying that I didn't care about it, deep inside I wanted to win. But at least I get a trophy (albeit a cheaply made one) and besides, there's still Commonwealth!

I'M BAAAAACK!!

2007-01-28T20:12:00.000+08:00

Yo, guys! I'm back! Hmm... It might just be me, but the trip seemed sort of... unnecessary? We went there... Ate... Bought a few things... Ate again... Yeah. Can't say much else though, I have Commonwealth to do >.<;;

False Memories

暴走中

FRICTION

バカな事

Horizon

ウンメイ

Love & Piece

うるさい

蘇りました～！！

ラブ＝ソ＝ブル

ユーダイモニア

レス＝ミセラブレス

モサイックカケラ２

モサイックカケラ

ボクは...

つ、 か、 れ、 た。

Choice & Consequence

The Nowarist - Straightener

Night at the Tekken Balik Rumah Toby I'm Gonna Kill You BlazBlue ftw.

Insomnia - Wheesung

Wednesday

きっと大丈夫～！！

「ウツクシサ」というものは... いったいなんだろう？

Sunny Day

なんでもないんです。

「ゲンカイ」

Obligatory Orientation Post!

Calamity Strikes!

Blazin' Beat!

Gives You Hell - The All-American Rejects

TRANSMUTE YOUR MOM

ボクを... イライラするな!

SIALAH! ALTHALOS!

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Tuts My Barreh

2009

=.=

'So What'?

ふざけるな...

Prom Night (Late, yes, I know.)

Begin

Farewell.

L

Catharsis

Characters

Laugh

Reverse/Rebirth

Card

Days

Kid

ラセン

change the WorLd

ブレブレブレブレ

Jufrande!

Quiz 2

Quiz

Games

誰

Gravity

Time

Atmosphere

SORRY FARAH

My mind's unraveling at the speed of light.

Choices.

Notes near Body Parts in Belgium Linked to Death Note

Uzumaki

Dreams - HIGH and MIGHTY COLOR

The Update That is Completely Pointless Yet Absolutely Necessary

Damn you, Potter.

Aussie Week

Monday

Tuesday

Wednesday

Thursday

Friday

Conclusion

This Week In Review! (Alternatively "Why is This Blog Still Alive?")

Dude, where're my holidays?

It's time for another Random Survey!

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